May 26, 2005 21:35
this is one of those weird entries. i havnt updated in a while and i feel its time too. im prob just over-reacting but maybe not. i feel like in these past couple of months i have grown farther apart from my friends. its weird it seems like ever since hawaii things have changed. people are starting to do different things, people who say there ur best friend then turn out not to be, its kinda weird. i dont know if this is really bothering me but i cant really tell. it seems like my best friend and the only person i can trust now is craig. and it seems like our group is splitting up and certain people are going there own ways. one way this has been shown is with stephen's hit list and i have been eliminated. i guess that's it maybe it means something maybe it doesnt. i just feel like i am losing some of my closest friends but i just cant seem to tell. like when i drove kd around tonight and she talked about moving to california for a year. i dont know what i would do. i needed to get this out somehow and the only way for me to do this was with my livejournal. so maybe this is so long maybe its not but i cant tell all i can see everyone moving farther and farther away.
with many thoughts,
~J.