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because i want to lay on your bed. because i want to smell your pillow. because i've made a list of every boy i can remember kissing and you're not on it. because your body is warmer than mine in the air conditioning. because i like the shape of your hands. because i can't lie about going out of my way to be near you. because there was that one time when we were alone and i thought i stopped breathing. because i know you'd be the perfect dad. because we've never talked on the phone. because i texted you and you had no idea. because you found out. because i want your arms around me. because i actually want everyone to know. because i want to buy you drinks at the bar. because i want a reason to stay in on friday night. because i could listen to your voice for hours. because i want to see you outside of work more often. because your last name sounds terrible with my first. because i'm getting ahead of myself. because i'm falling head over feet. because you're funny when you're drunk. because i spend that last hundred calories on the treadmill thinking of you. because i get that parking-lot feeling when i hear your name. because i'm younger than you. because i think a part of me knew this would happen. because the other part doesn't mind. because i want to nap next to you. because i wouldn't mind if you snored. because it's so easy to list all the things i love about you. because it's even easier to imagine being with you. because i never want to stop. because i want to ask you how your day was, even though i spent it with you. because i know that you have goals and dreams and because i want those, too. because i want to sit next to you in the movies. because i never want flowers. because i could think of a million reasons why. because i can't have him. because i want you, but you have no idea.