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if for one day i could be something other than this pessimistic, timid, patheic person, i'd be happy. i convince myself of the worst for no reason, and let it bother me to the point of serious problems. i've been having a lot of anxiety attacks lately, and i don't know what's wrong. i'm not sad or anything, i just worry like it's an addiction. anyway, i apologize to anyone that i've been talking to lately, i know i havn't been great at conversation, and basically probably brought everyone around me down, so i'm sorry.