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why hello, fellow homosapiens!
ahhh k so i am updating now.
yes.
been pretty busy with work.
last day is gonna be on the 3rd of jan.
then they say im probably gonna be transfered to another department.
but nothings comfirmed.
ahh.
life's been ok i guess.
nowadays, i cant help but feel really.. insecure?
idk if thats the right word to use. maybe it is.
my heart beats faster than ever now.
and i think im going mad.
one minute im so happy. the next i feel like crying. then im back to my happy self.
it fucking scares me sometimes.
and right now.
im afraid.
i dont really know of what.
i feel fucking stupid.
no, i lied.
im not afraid...
i think im more of angry.
and the reason i feel stupid, is bec i know exactly why im angry and its really a fucking stupid reason.
i feel so fucked up. cos i cant put into words what im feeling.
its like one of my pull-hair-scream-and-cry moments.
nbcb.
i hate. ex-girlfriends.
ahhh k so i am updating now.
yes.
been pretty busy with work.
last day is gonna be on the 3rd of jan.
then they say im probably gonna be transfered to another department.
but nothings comfirmed.
ahh.
life's been ok i guess.
nowadays, i cant help but feel really.. insecure?
idk if thats the right word to use. maybe it is.
my heart beats faster than ever now.
and i think im going mad.
one minute im so happy. the next i feel like crying. then im back to my happy self.
it fucking scares me sometimes.
and right now.
im afraid.
i dont really know of what.
i feel fucking stupid.
no, i lied.
im not afraid...
i think im more of angry.
and the reason i feel stupid, is bec i know exactly why im angry and its really a fucking stupid reason.
i feel so fucked up. cos i cant put into words what im feeling.
its like one of my pull-hair-scream-and-cry moments.
nbcb.
i hate. ex-girlfriends.