thank you God . . .
It's after sunset, but I can feel the sun on my face . . . I'm finally happy, I'm finally pulling out of my depression, I'm finally holding onto the philosophy that life is good and I am so blessed and need to praise and thank God everyday for all that goes right in my life and pray for all that doesn't. I'm still dealing with a broken heart, I still have something in my life that makes me sad and occasionally makes me cry until my heart aches so much that it feels like it's gonna burst, but I have finally learned how to deal with my sadness without it taking over my life, and my optimism. And it just happened, it was nothing I did, but these life changes all took place after one very special event, the forming of the bond between myself and a very dear friend just a few short months ago. Whether he knows it or not, he gave me a new lease on life, he helped me to find the strength to fight my demons and be happy, and the best part is that he didn't do it for me, he helped me to find the strength to do it for myself. "Feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you, only you can let it in, no one else, no one else, can speak the words on your lips, drench yourself in words unspoken, live your life with arms wide open, today is, where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten." I was constantly smiling around him, and now, after months of him pulling that smile out of me again and again, I am constantly smiling, constantly laughing, constantly enjoying life. Kory Edward Helmick, you are my angel, and I love you now and every day of the rest of my life! Thank you so much, you have no idea what you've done for me, I'm me again, I'm happy again, I'm living again, and words could never express all my gratitude. You unleashed the warrior in me, and you saved my life. Ah sweet boy, YOU FRIGGIN' RULE!!!!!! :) Yes, yes, so much that it hurts, haha! Keep those Michael Bolton serenades coming, the least I could do is throw a little moment of happiness your way! "Here together, friends forever, some things were just meant to be, and that's you and me!"