musical therapy

[warriorwoman05]

Well, mounting stress levels and high school drama has reduced the goofy/happy state I had finally found, but I'm determined to get it back because I personally feel I'm much more likable by myself and other people when I'm in that state of mind. That and if other people want to create drama in their own lives and make things harder on themselves they can go right ahead, but I refuse to dwell on it because I have better things to do with my time. I've been accused of changing, but I have news for you people, that's called growing up. I have changed a bit over the summer, I'VE MATURED! I have also grown a set of balls (figuratively) and no longer take crap from people like it's okay to just walk all over me and good ol' dependable Becky will still be there 100%. You treat me the way I deserve to be treated, be a good friend, and I'll be there for you, if not, then you can forget it, because people have taken advantage of me and my "niceness" my whole life and I'm sick of it. I don't give up easily on friendships because I invest way too much of myself in them in the first place and relationships take work, but you can't expect me to just act like nothing ever goes wrong and act the exact same way toward you when you're constantly walking all over me. I'm still here, and I'm still a friend, but the relationship isn't going to remain exactly the same over time, people change. To keep and continue a closeness with someone you have to work on it, and you have to stop doing what you were doing wrong in the first place, not say I'm sorry and turn around and do it again. My ten year relationship with Michel has only lasted that long because whenever we had a conflict we ALWAYS talked it out, and we accepted the changes in each other and adapted to them because we both understood that people grow up and they change. Change doesn't have to be a bad thing. Selfishness also hinders relationships, as well as not taking responsibility for your own actions and projecting onto your "friends". I don't have hidden agendas in my friendships, I don't use "friends" to get close to someone else, and I certainly do not try to manipulate people into being my friend. I'm myself, and if you don't like me for who I am, who cares! I have plenty of people in my life who love me and care about me for who I am, people who never have and never will stab me in the back. Now that I have vented all that, I'm done with it. I've got too much homework to be worryin about this shit. I'm going to listen to my music, spend time with the people who make me feel good and happy and loved, and I'm going to be my goofy happy self dammit no matter what anyone else does or says! In this particular time, I want to extend much love and thanks to three very important people in my life who are always there for me and always know how to make me smile: Jason, Michel, and Kory. You three are my saving grace and I appreciate and love you all so much! Mwah! Now it's off to work, it's my last week biotches! Woot woot!!!!

Ashlee Simpson ~ Boyfriend

Whatcha been doin'? Whatcha been doin?
Whoa, Whoa,
Haven't seen ya 'round,

How you been feelin'? How you been feelin'?
Whoa, whoa,
Don't you bring me down,

All that shit about me,
Being with him,
Can't believe,
All the lies that you told,
Just to ease your own soul,
But I'm bigger than that,
No, you don't have my back,
No, No, HA

[Chorus]

Hey, how long till the music drowns you out?
Don't put words up in my mouth,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you face what's goin' on,
Cause you really got it wrong,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,

Well I'm sorry,
That he called me,
And that I answered the telephone,
Don't be worried,
I'm not with him,
And when I go out tonight,
I'm going home alone,
Just got back from my tour,
I'm a mess girl for sure,
All I want is some fun,
Guess that I'd better run,
Hollywood sucks you in,
But it won't spit me out,
Whoa, Whoa, HA

[Chorus]

Hey, how long till the music drowns you out?
Don't put words up in my mouth,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,

Hey, how long till you face what's going on?
Cause you really got it wrong,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you look at your own life,
Instead of looking into mine,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you're leaving me alone,
Don't you got somewhere to go?
I didn't steal your boyfriend,

Whoa, whoa, whoa ha
Whoa, whoa, whoa ha

Please stop telling all your friends,
I'm getting sick of them,
Always staring at me like I took him from ya'

[Chorus]

Hey, how long till the music drowns you out?
Don't put words up in my mouth,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you face what's going on?
Cause you really got it wrong,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you look at your own life,
Instead of looking into mine,
I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Hey, how long till you're leaving me alone,
Don't you got somewhere to go?
I didn't steal your boyfriend,

Whoa, whoa, whoa, ha,
Whoa, I didn't steal your boyfriend,
Whoa, whoa, whoa, ha,
Whoa, I didn't steal your boyfriend