[fanfic] Endlessly Lost in Time
THEME 26: FOREVER AND A DAY
Title: Endlessly Lost In Time
Author: yakitoki
Fandom: Samurai Warriors
Pairing: Oichi/Nagamasa
Rating: T-13
Summary: Could there really be a moment where we could both finally be together? Forever seems to fly by so fast…can we have just one last tomorrow? Just for us?
Author’s Notes: I was so inspired by Oichi’s events with Nagamasa in Samurai Warriors 2. I don’t see why she had to act that way. It’s in the POV version. :)
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OICHI’S POV
I feel like I’ve asked so much from Nagamasa…I do not know whether I should blame this situation to my brother, Nobunaga Oda. Long have they been both enemies and I have done nothing to ease the tension between them. I’ve only made it worse when I…I fell in love with the enemy in the process. I couldn’t deny the situation, I’ve loved Nagamasa so much, I wanted to be the wife he would have loved. The kind of wife that didn’t go against him. The one who…didn’t have to take his life.
How I hated myself for deciding the worst decisions! Nagamasa never wanted to hurt me in the first place and here I was, holding his dead body around my arms, completely helpless. The truth hurt even more when I realized I was the cause of it. When he fought, he was not only fighting for justice, but also for our love. He was trying to set me free from my brother’s clutches so that we could finally spend that forever…as one. Where we could take the same path…where we could both play our roles as…husband and wife.
Cherry blossoms were the small pink flowers Nagamasa used to give me. He knew how much I loved them and he’d be there just to attach some to my hair or wrapped carefully in a box…preserving its lasting beauty. Even then did I find that same flower placed behind his armor when he died. I could clearly see that he wanted to make sure I was able to receive it. Tears fell down my eyes at the thought that he was hesitant to fight this last battle…for my sake. He didn’t want to see me hurt but look where it led us both now…
Nagamasa was dead but I felt dead inside, myself. All I felt was hollow emptiness echoing from my heart…all the love I had for him…was gone. I had no more love left to give nor will I have any more intention to if ever there were any left. They were all for Nagamasa…
I hope the love that left my heart went straight to you, my love.
These tears from my eyes…every drop was dedicated to every loving moment we had together. They were all countless and memorable. Every moment was special to my heart and never again will I try to remove them from my mind. Oh Nagamasa, you would never know how much I wanted to hold you in my arms, nor will you never know the sorrow and grief I’ve held in myself after I realized you were doing all this for me. I could never repay your unconditional love and kindness nor will I forget it. I can never…never forget anything about you, my wonderful husband…
Someday, there will finally be that special time where we could live together in happiness. That forever here on Earth went by too fast for me realize your true intentions. Maybe…a day in heaven would be worth even more than all the time in the world. It might not be now…but it shall happen. I know it will.
Oh, Nagamasa, will you please…wait for me?
…Up there where I know you would be always watching over me…
…Where the cherry blossoms will stay forever blooming…
Just like the love we have now…lost but immeasurable…
Something I’ll never forget because,
I love you, Nagamasa.