It's a beautiful feeling
I don't want to get better
I just feel so good today. The hypomanic 'high' and the seroquel actually make a pretty damn good combination.
Unfortunately taking seroquel makes you feel drowsy...(or at least very relaxed)... so it's been difficult for me to get any reading or study done. I don't know how much I could have done anyway.
I called Dr B yesterday and I'm to stay on the seroquel (200mg per day) and reduce the Avanza (anti-depressant). It's SO tempting to stay on this dose of Avanza and try and keep the high going for as long as possible. I don't want to go back down to normal again.
I spent a very relaxing day downloading blinkies for my collection and listening to music. I also spent some time weeding the courtyard so that it looks nice when Mum and Dad get back tomorrow.
Yesterday I tried the list method and managed to get some housework done and a very little bit of study. Today I haven't done anything productive except the weeding. Not that I care very much. I feel too good to worry about anything.
I have been listening to Metallica's S&M. It's something that goes very well with what I'm feeling right now.
Do any of you others with bipolar find that your enjoyment of music is enhanced when you are manic?
And I find that I feel more connected to things. Like nature. Everything just looks more beautiful. I can become transfixed by the shape of a leaf, or flower. Everything is magical. I don't just see it, I feel it so completely.
Why would I want this feeling to end?
The ONLY reason is that I do care about getting through this semester, and the longer it takes me to get better the less likely it is that I'll finish everything I need to do.
It's an important reason.
But sometimes it's hard to remember that uni is important. The only thing that seems important is feeling this good.
I just don't want to get better.
I just feel so good today. The hypomanic 'high' and the seroquel actually make a pretty damn good combination.
Unfortunately taking seroquel makes you feel drowsy...(or at least very relaxed)... so it's been difficult for me to get any reading or study done. I don't know how much I could have done anyway.
I called Dr B yesterday and I'm to stay on the seroquel (200mg per day) and reduce the Avanza (anti-depressant). It's SO tempting to stay on this dose of Avanza and try and keep the high going for as long as possible. I don't want to go back down to normal again.
I spent a very relaxing day downloading blinkies for my collection and listening to music. I also spent some time weeding the courtyard so that it looks nice when Mum and Dad get back tomorrow.
Yesterday I tried the list method and managed to get some housework done and a very little bit of study. Today I haven't done anything productive except the weeding. Not that I care very much. I feel too good to worry about anything.
I have been listening to Metallica's S&M. It's something that goes very well with what I'm feeling right now.
Do any of you others with bipolar find that your enjoyment of music is enhanced when you are manic?
And I find that I feel more connected to things. Like nature. Everything just looks more beautiful. I can become transfixed by the shape of a leaf, or flower. Everything is magical. I don't just see it, I feel it so completely.
Why would I want this feeling to end?
The ONLY reason is that I do care about getting through this semester, and the longer it takes me to get better the less likely it is that I'll finish everything I need to do.
It's an important reason.
But sometimes it's hard to remember that uni is important. The only thing that seems important is feeling this good.
I just don't want to get better.