Where do you find your heart when you've lost your mind?
Where do you find your heart when you have lost your mind? Oddly enough that question keeps coming up a lot. Things are kind of sucking and going "O, so awesome" all at once. Physically I'm reaching for nothing but the next meal. Mentally I reach for all those that aren't there. One of my dearhearts is in California and has intsilled in me that I can not give up on men, for no matter what he's all ways there for me. Sweety and kind of father is sitting over in Texas suffering from many of the same things I am, in the end both of us are wishing for the youth that we were forced to miss. And as the blood slowly crawls down my arm, the other Texan comes to my mind. My loving and adorable soccer pal from high school, he was there that wonderful weekend my world eneded for the first time. He stayed by my side through as much as he could, then when he went back to Texas he gave me his heart and told me to hold it till he could come back for it. He taught me how to fight and not let everything come in at once, he also showed me how to hide my emotions. To make it look as if I don't give a damn about anything, that way the fragile child within could continue to live. Since then we have had a world happen to and between us. After all this there is my heart in Tennesse. So much more to say about him and still just as much to hide from him. How can I tell him about the me and _______ ordeal and still have him Ok with me? And at the same time how can I not? We are holding one anothers hearts and hope in hands that neither of us recognize. Do I let him know thats he is quite possibly my last hope of holding up and open the world of the child within?
Where do find you heart when you have lost your mind? Going into my head and out of my fingers for my mouth can no longer say it without allowing the sobs to follow. It has been so very long since the last time I have seen or heard from my little brother. I miss him. I love him. He is my family, forever my only family. I can't bear the tears knowing that he is staying away for reasons he CAN'T tell me. This is my heart screaming against the cage so many have put up around it. MY love, my blood, my life, my family is in trouble and there's not a damned thing I can about it but sit and wait. I can't even watch. Hope and Time have never felt like so evil an enemy as they do now. Screaming, raging, all of the anger inside is pounding against every wall and restraint trying to make so much of eveything else give in that even ...... well some secrets are best left where they are. Such utter despair and small singlets of hope keep pairing and at the end of it all. There is nothing.
Where do you find yout heart when you have lost your mind? Finally got a job I like. O and it pays good to. Well it pays enough to allow to stop from being mature that much longer in my life. But the company will help pay for school if I go for the degree they want. Not too mention I am all ready being groomed for something big in the company. I am the highedt paid co-manager in the company and my GM is the highest paid as is the DM, but these are things that I am not supposed to know or care about. What I am suppose to care about is that my new stores numbers are the lowest in our district.................well they where. Now that my GM and I have started, the two short weeks I have been there we went from being dead last to bring somewhere in the middle and we continue to rise. Now what my boss doesn't know is that if we manage to get to the top. Well they give the GM title and give me my own store, but that store will be a brand new store somewhere in Maryland or New York. What do I do?
Where do you find your heart when you have lost your mind?
Where do find you heart when you have lost your mind? Going into my head and out of my fingers for my mouth can no longer say it without allowing the sobs to follow. It has been so very long since the last time I have seen or heard from my little brother. I miss him. I love him. He is my family, forever my only family. I can't bear the tears knowing that he is staying away for reasons he CAN'T tell me. This is my heart screaming against the cage so many have put up around it. MY love, my blood, my life, my family is in trouble and there's not a damned thing I can about it but sit and wait. I can't even watch. Hope and Time have never felt like so evil an enemy as they do now. Screaming, raging, all of the anger inside is pounding against every wall and restraint trying to make so much of eveything else give in that even ...... well some secrets are best left where they are. Such utter despair and small singlets of hope keep pairing and at the end of it all. There is nothing.
Where do you find yout heart when you have lost your mind? Finally got a job I like. O and it pays good to. Well it pays enough to allow to stop from being mature that much longer in my life. But the company will help pay for school if I go for the degree they want. Not too mention I am all ready being groomed for something big in the company. I am the highedt paid co-manager in the company and my GM is the highest paid as is the DM, but these are things that I am not supposed to know or care about. What I am suppose to care about is that my new stores numbers are the lowest in our district.................well they where. Now that my GM and I have started, the two short weeks I have been there we went from being dead last to bring somewhere in the middle and we continue to rise. Now what my boss doesn't know is that if we manage to get to the top. Well they give the GM title and give me my own store, but that store will be a brand new store somewhere in Maryland or New York. What do I do?
Where do you find your heart when you have lost your mind?