fuck
Well, it’s been forever and a day, and I feel that something note worthy has happened. Genna broke up with me
Apparently I’ve been hurting her a long time and haven’t been putting enough into the relationship, so she ended it.
Wow
It totally blows, not even that she broke up with me, but that I failed to even make her happy. That hurts the most; because that is so against everything I tried to do. Apparently she is happy with her decision. I’ll do nothing to hold her back, I already tried fighting until the end to get a woman, and I determined love is in fact not worth fighting for. And according to her she is finding out “Things” that have re-enforced her decision whatever, if she wanted to find things out, she should talk to me, it’s not like I EVER lied to her, or TRIED to hurt her. I never pressured her into doing something she didn’t want to do. I was always kind, generous and supporting. So what the fuck ever
The only thing I can think of that I never told her is that I decided a long time ago not to marry her, this may seem like a cold decision but go ahead and watch We Were Soldiers and pay close attention to the part when the young Lieutenants wife gets told that he has been KIA. Try not to cry, I dare you. You all know that my path leads into harms way, watch the damn news some time. How could I ever do that to someone I love. So I knew that it was bound to end, but I had hoped it would have been well, with both of us happy about the time we had spent with each other. But no, apparently I’m such a fuck up that she is happy, neigh perhaps relieved that it is over.
And now I can’t stop thinking about what it was that did it, or stop hating myself for fucking up so horrendously. Whatever, I’m tired, and I can’t fucking sleep. Maybe this is why I never got involved with anyone before. It’s just that my bad luck finally ran out and I had to learn the hard way that it was really just good luck.
fuck
Apparently I’ve been hurting her a long time and haven’t been putting enough into the relationship, so she ended it.
Wow
It totally blows, not even that she broke up with me, but that I failed to even make her happy. That hurts the most; because that is so against everything I tried to do. Apparently she is happy with her decision. I’ll do nothing to hold her back, I already tried fighting until the end to get a woman, and I determined love is in fact not worth fighting for. And according to her she is finding out “Things” that have re-enforced her decision whatever, if she wanted to find things out, she should talk to me, it’s not like I EVER lied to her, or TRIED to hurt her. I never pressured her into doing something she didn’t want to do. I was always kind, generous and supporting. So what the fuck ever
The only thing I can think of that I never told her is that I decided a long time ago not to marry her, this may seem like a cold decision but go ahead and watch We Were Soldiers and pay close attention to the part when the young Lieutenants wife gets told that he has been KIA. Try not to cry, I dare you. You all know that my path leads into harms way, watch the damn news some time. How could I ever do that to someone I love. So I knew that it was bound to end, but I had hoped it would have been well, with both of us happy about the time we had spent with each other. But no, apparently I’m such a fuck up that she is happy, neigh perhaps relieved that it is over.
And now I can’t stop thinking about what it was that did it, or stop hating myself for fucking up so horrendously. Whatever, I’m tired, and I can’t fucking sleep. Maybe this is why I never got involved with anyone before. It’s just that my bad luck finally ran out and I had to learn the hard way that it was really just good luck.
fuck