Ah, Fuck It
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I had to...
OK, that aside...
So my grandfather passed away, my mom's dad.
And now I'm having some kind of strange internal conflict.
I didn't know him that well, didn't see him that much. In fact, I could probably count on one hand how many times I've seen him that I can remember clearly.
So I can't say I've got a lot of attachment to him.
On the other hand, he had a stroke and then had a couple of months of indignity and suffering, which isn't good for anyone and it was really taking its toll on my mom.
When my dad actually told me today, I was kind of numb. Then, when I was talking to my grandmother (the other one) and talking to her about it, I was nearly in tears for some reason, for like 2 minutes. And then it passed and settled back into this disturbing numbness I feel now.
It's like I know I'm supposed to feel something here but I really don't and that's... making me want to feel bad, even though I'm not.
This has to be the oddest emotional bullshit I've ever experienced in my entire life. I can't really figure it out.
Hmm.