Another useless day...11:12
Once again today has be a pain in the anal region. Dad continued the on-going fight as soon as he came in. So I went up to Pat and Jon's to get away from it. They are the only ones that really know what it is like living down here. And I am really sorry they had to see it. I finally came home when I saw mom pull in. Then dad bitched me out because I took the peppers and onions off of my pizza. Ok its none of the dickhead's concern how I eat so get over it. Then he decided we were going to argue over something else...so I just zoned out into space. Then mother and I had another "talk" ya know, where she talks and I listen. Now either I cheer up or I am going to Shawnee Hills. She can do whatever she wants to me. But she is not putting me in that place. And Breanna isn't helping that matter any. She keeps telling her I cut. I don't want her to know that. Besides I don't do it anymore. I promised Luke and myself I wouldn't do it anymore, but right now it is sounding really good. But I'm not going to. I don't know whats wrong with me. I know I need help, but I'm scared. I don't know if that makes any sense but what else is new. My life doesn't make any sense.