Fucked up.
Almost everyone that reads this reads her journal so i'm not going into detail because i know she will.
I fucked up bad. I was so sure she would choose me over him, but she didn't and i'm so fucking angry with him i never want to see his face again.
I got my caste off today, i was planning to go and drink away my sorrows tonight but i couldn't because i got dragged off training at 4 and i have to be up at 5am tomorrow for the same so i'm allowed no toxins in my body.
I talked to emma, she says there isn't even any point talking to Sai because she hates me. FUCK.
I lose her whatever i do now, i know it.
If i go and talk to her and ask her to come back to me she will think i'm weak for not sticking to my guns, if i don't make any attempt to make up with her she respect me, yes, but love me, no.
I'm going to bed.
peace x
I fucked up bad. I was so sure she would choose me over him, but she didn't and i'm so fucking angry with him i never want to see his face again.
I got my caste off today, i was planning to go and drink away my sorrows tonight but i couldn't because i got dragged off training at 4 and i have to be up at 5am tomorrow for the same so i'm allowed no toxins in my body.
I talked to emma, she says there isn't even any point talking to Sai because she hates me. FUCK.
I lose her whatever i do now, i know it.
If i go and talk to her and ask her to come back to me she will think i'm weak for not sticking to my guns, if i don't make any attempt to make up with her she respect me, yes, but love me, no.
I'm going to bed.
peace x