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well im sitting in mrs judds class in first lunch.
today hasnt been the greatest day so far.
the good.
-mrs cambell wasnt here today, we had a sub.
the bad.
-i woke up late.
-katie isnt in school, she doesnt feel good
-i have a horrible headache
-i dont think chris or sam are here.
-i wont have anyone to talk to during lunch
-i cant find any of my cds at home
-my computer broke last night
i just cant wait until this school day is over.
so i can go over to katies and be with her.
i know everything will be alright as soon as im in her arms.
all feelings of regret, depression, anxiety go away when im with her. i only feel two feelings when im with her. love and loved.
i love katie so much.
i dont know what im going to do on saturday.
katie is working in the morning from 11 to 5
or somthing like that
then she is going to her aunts,i think its her aunts, to baby sit for the night.
hmmm...
maybe ill hang with chris or maybe jake.
me and jake havent done anything in a long long time.
i talked with him alittle bit this morning
he gave me a ride to school, well his mom did.
i think saturday im going to hang with him.
i miss my boo......
there isnt anyone in mrs judds class besides me.
its weird.
ive gotta try and find somone that has a cell phone that i can borrow.
i want to call katie and see how shes feeling.
i hope she feels better.
:/
i dont like it when she feels sick
last night i had to walk home.
my sister told me to walk over to steves house if i ever left katies before she called. but when i walked over there noone was there. her car was in the driveway but her and steve went somewhere. so i had to walk home at 10 last night.
it upsets me how my mom doesnt tell me or my sister anything about whats going on with her cancer and doctors appointments. when me or her ask her about how an appointment went she just brings somthing else up. its like she doesnt want us to know anything. i know i always say how much i hate my mom and call her hitler, but really i love her. and i care about her. i want to know hows shes feeling. i dont know how to tell her all this. maybe i shouldnt.
well the bell is about to ring so im going to end this pointless post.
i guess ill go see if anyone shows up for lunch, or if im gonna be sitting at the table alone today.
bye