starting things off with a beng-beng
A "last time" survey for the first day of the year:
Last Car Ride: with Z verrry early this morning.
Last Cry: around 5am, while watching "A Walk to Remember" and bidding something goodbye.
Last Smile: a little past 7am yesterday outside venezia, when the last shower of confetti fell down on us.
Last Library Book Checked Out: honestly, i can't remember. high school, probably.
Last Movie Seen: premiere of LOTR:ROTK
Last Book Read: Madeleine L'engle's "A Wrinkle In Time"
Last Beverage Drank: a glass of water
Last Food Consumed: omelette then fruit salad.
Last Crush: scroll down towards my previous entries and you'll know.
Last Phone Call: if i tell you, i'd have to kill you.
Last Show Watched: LOTR:FOTR on hbo
Last Time Showered: an hour ago.
Last Shoes Worn: are birks counted?
Last CD played: "Everlasting Blink" by Bent
Last Item Bought: san mig light in nuvo.
Last Downloaded: i don't download anymore. this phone is now my internet buddy.
Last Disappointment: when i saw a good friend's forearm with several slashes starting from the wrist going up the elbow. i wish she'd clue us in.
Last Key Used: my room key.
Last Phrase Spoken: "Wait lang"
Last Sleep: 6am-1pm today.
Last Ice Cream Eaten: a gallon of double dutch is waiting for me at home.
Last Time Amused: when this aussie dude in absinthe came up to me and asked, "why do you look familiar?" lame pick-up line aside, he's cute.
Last Time Wanted to Die: when staphylococcus invaded my face.
Last Time In Love: not too long ago.
Last Time Hugged: new year's eve, friends and family.
Last Time Kissed: a couple of hours ago.
Last Time Held Hands: definitely not with Z.
Last Webpage Visited: friendster.. where i got this.
Last Song Listened To: "Been So Long Without You" Bent
Last Time Stressed: as long as calls keep coming in during work, i'm deeply disturbed.
Last Time REALLY Happy: morning of the 24th. but it was bittersweet in a lot of ways.
Last Time Excited: morning of the 24th as well, may matutulugan pala ako.. and of course, i wanted to see him.
Last Time confused: when i was trying to figure out different routes for a very fussy caller wanting to go to a mexican resto near union square in manhattan.. gimme a break, i'm halfway across the world!
Last Time Worried: after making a coupla disturbing, drunken phone calls the morning of the 31st.
Last Time Late For Class: the last time i attended French class.
* * *
Surprise, surprise. i did end up at the venezia party on Jan 1. my very sleepy mom let me go without arguing with me. harry and louise, the girl who celebrated her birthday earlier this month were both at my place, complaining about love's trappings and our tendency to attract "un-normal" people. thus the need to go out.
Greenbelt 3 and the surrounding areas were annoyingly packed, bursting at the seams with more people than usual. we went to ven at 530 already, without having to pay the cover charge and enjoyed the last few streams of confetti, non-stop "udz-udz" music and people dancing all the way to 7am.
Talk about faces in daylight. fading, if not garrish make-up. unruly hair and slightly disheveled clothes. bloodshot eyes. a reality check on the person's skin condition. Daylight: the acid-test on the people who are seemingly gorgeous under strobe lights and in candle-lit bars.
GOOD MORNING, MANILA. 2004 IS ON.
* * *
Got home at 730 and my dad opened the door, surprised to see i've been out. i told him i caught the first sunrise of the year with my friends. he asked me to accompany him drive around to give the excess food we had to the people on the street. and that was the best part of the "night".
Grateful smiles and unconditional deeds.. i hope everyone's 2004 would be filled with these.
* * *
Last night, meanwhile.. was, for a lack of better words, a relief. but not purely relieving in a good way. more like a "now you can breathe" kind of thing.
Z, who i haven't seen in several months and the one i've been avoiding making myself felt to, texted me. he's the subject of my TOTAL ASS story on new year's eve 2002 and i don't want to humiliate myself further. but since he was the one who asked to see me and not the other way around, i said yes.
He was outside my gate by 230am. We shivered in his car while listening to songs we haven't heard in years. Drank a couple of beers while walking around the village, maintaining bullshit-filled conversation we're so used to. we were surprised to realize that we've known each other for almost 3 years now.
First night of the year and i'm rolling my eyes at the first guy i fell in love with. not bad. and a far cry from last year's shenanigans at that.
* * *
He took me home a little after 4am and right after sent me messages that started lightly and ended knee-deep in sarcasm. his mood swings used to drive me crazy, but now they just amuse me. i ended the text brigade and opted to watch "a walk to remember". an hour and a half later, i was crying. not so much because of the movie, but more so because of a certain closure granted to me.
Z had nothing to do with it.
And by the time i fell asleep, although the sun was already way past rising, it still felt dark. and then came the thought that "it is in our darkest hour that we must have faith".
i still believe.
Last Car Ride: with Z verrry early this morning.
Last Cry: around 5am, while watching "A Walk to Remember" and bidding something goodbye.
Last Smile: a little past 7am yesterday outside venezia, when the last shower of confetti fell down on us.
Last Library Book Checked Out: honestly, i can't remember. high school, probably.
Last Movie Seen: premiere of LOTR:ROTK
Last Book Read: Madeleine L'engle's "A Wrinkle In Time"
Last Beverage Drank: a glass of water
Last Food Consumed: omelette then fruit salad.
Last Crush: scroll down towards my previous entries and you'll know.
Last Phone Call: if i tell you, i'd have to kill you.
Last Show Watched: LOTR:FOTR on hbo
Last Time Showered: an hour ago.
Last Shoes Worn: are birks counted?
Last CD played: "Everlasting Blink" by Bent
Last Item Bought: san mig light in nuvo.
Last Downloaded: i don't download anymore. this phone is now my internet buddy.
Last Disappointment: when i saw a good friend's forearm with several slashes starting from the wrist going up the elbow. i wish she'd clue us in.
Last Key Used: my room key.
Last Phrase Spoken: "Wait lang"
Last Sleep: 6am-1pm today.
Last Ice Cream Eaten: a gallon of double dutch is waiting for me at home.
Last Time Amused: when this aussie dude in absinthe came up to me and asked, "why do you look familiar?" lame pick-up line aside, he's cute.
Last Time Wanted to Die: when staphylococcus invaded my face.
Last Time In Love: not too long ago.
Last Time Hugged: new year's eve, friends and family.
Last Time Kissed: a couple of hours ago.
Last Time Held Hands: definitely not with Z.
Last Webpage Visited: friendster.. where i got this.
Last Song Listened To: "Been So Long Without You" Bent
Last Time Stressed: as long as calls keep coming in during work, i'm deeply disturbed.
Last Time REALLY Happy: morning of the 24th. but it was bittersweet in a lot of ways.
Last Time Excited: morning of the 24th as well, may matutulugan pala ako.. and of course, i wanted to see him.
Last Time confused: when i was trying to figure out different routes for a very fussy caller wanting to go to a mexican resto near union square in manhattan.. gimme a break, i'm halfway across the world!
Last Time Worried: after making a coupla disturbing, drunken phone calls the morning of the 31st.
Last Time Late For Class: the last time i attended French class.
* * *
Surprise, surprise. i did end up at the venezia party on Jan 1. my very sleepy mom let me go without arguing with me. harry and louise, the girl who celebrated her birthday earlier this month were both at my place, complaining about love's trappings and our tendency to attract "un-normal" people. thus the need to go out.
Greenbelt 3 and the surrounding areas were annoyingly packed, bursting at the seams with more people than usual. we went to ven at 530 already, without having to pay the cover charge and enjoyed the last few streams of confetti, non-stop "udz-udz" music and people dancing all the way to 7am.
Talk about faces in daylight. fading, if not garrish make-up. unruly hair and slightly disheveled clothes. bloodshot eyes. a reality check on the person's skin condition. Daylight: the acid-test on the people who are seemingly gorgeous under strobe lights and in candle-lit bars.
GOOD MORNING, MANILA. 2004 IS ON.
* * *
Got home at 730 and my dad opened the door, surprised to see i've been out. i told him i caught the first sunrise of the year with my friends. he asked me to accompany him drive around to give the excess food we had to the people on the street. and that was the best part of the "night".
Grateful smiles and unconditional deeds.. i hope everyone's 2004 would be filled with these.
* * *
Last night, meanwhile.. was, for a lack of better words, a relief. but not purely relieving in a good way. more like a "now you can breathe" kind of thing.
Z, who i haven't seen in several months and the one i've been avoiding making myself felt to, texted me. he's the subject of my TOTAL ASS story on new year's eve 2002 and i don't want to humiliate myself further. but since he was the one who asked to see me and not the other way around, i said yes.
He was outside my gate by 230am. We shivered in his car while listening to songs we haven't heard in years. Drank a couple of beers while walking around the village, maintaining bullshit-filled conversation we're so used to. we were surprised to realize that we've known each other for almost 3 years now.
First night of the year and i'm rolling my eyes at the first guy i fell in love with. not bad. and a far cry from last year's shenanigans at that.
* * *
He took me home a little after 4am and right after sent me messages that started lightly and ended knee-deep in sarcasm. his mood swings used to drive me crazy, but now they just amuse me. i ended the text brigade and opted to watch "a walk to remember". an hour and a half later, i was crying. not so much because of the movie, but more so because of a certain closure granted to me.
Z had nothing to do with it.
And by the time i fell asleep, although the sun was already way past rising, it still felt dark. and then came the thought that "it is in our darkest hour that we must have faith".
i still believe.