the construction outside my window is impeding my paper writing progress...
i wish i could drop out of school.
i mean, this thought crosses my mind daily, and has for years.
but...
maybe it's this pointless, ten page paper i have due today. it's literally pointless. busy work. it sounds like a middle schooler wrote it: THAT'S how pointless it is.
i'm sick of this meaningless drab drilled into our heads every day. and we're expected to retain it all. and utilize it. and all i want to do is stick it up my egotistical, apathetic professors' asses.
what happened to school being rewarding?
what happened to professors that truly care about their students? professors that WANT to form relationships with their pupils?
what happened to obtaining that degree at the end of college being enough?
what happened to a normal sleep schedule, lungs not gasping due to stress-cigarette intake, and a body not hopped up on other people's prescriptions only to stay up for too many hours, get by, and finish that measly paper you'll get back and get an A on and good for you! you can pat yourself on the back and throw it in the pile with all the other As; all the other papers the class-heavy professors, many who don't even know your name, breezed through.
academia is authoritative.
it is dumb.
it is a waste of my time.
i want to get out there! i want to improve the skills i have that will be used for my future career. and that isn't happening stuck here in school. instead, i sit here gnawing at my nails, nervously, as the time ticks away and i'm held back like a boxer in the ring before the bell dings and i only grow wearier of my future.
and god dammit! i want to read some fucking books!
is that really so much to ask?
i mean, this thought crosses my mind daily, and has for years.
but...
maybe it's this pointless, ten page paper i have due today. it's literally pointless. busy work. it sounds like a middle schooler wrote it: THAT'S how pointless it is.
i'm sick of this meaningless drab drilled into our heads every day. and we're expected to retain it all. and utilize it. and all i want to do is stick it up my egotistical, apathetic professors' asses.
what happened to school being rewarding?
what happened to professors that truly care about their students? professors that WANT to form relationships with their pupils?
what happened to obtaining that degree at the end of college being enough?
what happened to a normal sleep schedule, lungs not gasping due to stress-cigarette intake, and a body not hopped up on other people's prescriptions only to stay up for too many hours, get by, and finish that measly paper you'll get back and get an A on and good for you! you can pat yourself on the back and throw it in the pile with all the other As; all the other papers the class-heavy professors, many who don't even know your name, breezed through.
academia is authoritative.
it is dumb.
it is a waste of my time.
i want to get out there! i want to improve the skills i have that will be used for my future career. and that isn't happening stuck here in school. instead, i sit here gnawing at my nails, nervously, as the time ticks away and i'm held back like a boxer in the ring before the bell dings and i only grow wearier of my future.
and god dammit! i want to read some fucking books!
is that really so much to ask?