everything's not lost
everything's not lost, originally uploaded by warmxsound.
Last week of classes for this semester. Two more days left.
This picture sums up what I'm trying to tell myself as this semester comes to an end. It's really hard for me to deal with not doing well academically, even if and when there are valid circumstances, because I pressure myself so much to do well and get good grades. It's because I have such a huge fear of being stupid and of failing, and I can get pretty irrational about the standards and expectations I push onto myself because of it.
But I will get through this. I'm not a fuck-up. I'm not stupid. Being affected by what's going on with my grandma is not wrong or hard to understand. It's okay to be human; it's okay to not be okay. I don't need to compare myself to others and berate myself for not 'measuring up'.
I just need to keep reminding myself of things like this right now.