god i think to much
ok screw the pain meds...i def. think to much random thoughts all the time. this movie makes you think. i mean the time and effort some people put into killing and even the shit that goes on in the prison systems. and what happenes to the familys of the police detectives and and workers on high class cases. and i think. one day i could be in the same prediciment. i want to work the prison systems. be the one who is cracking the cases no one else can figure out. and if i do do that i risk putting my own family in danger. i risk the tension of not being there often for my loved one. because i have overtime work to do. ive even thought of doing something else so i dont have to put anyone thro bad shit. and i realize this is worst case senarios.
i dont even know why im writing this shit down. ive just had way to much timeto think lately. i hate not being abe to work. its only been like a few days but still. i feel like a waste. cant work cant play softball. cant even find someone to sit with me and watch a damn movie. what ever i think i mdone. done waiting around. i start looking. but not just for anyone.i want someone who means something. who actually cares about me as much as i do them. im done with one sided shit.
i dont even know why im writing this shit down. ive just had way to much timeto think lately. i hate not being abe to work. its only been like a few days but still. i feel like a waste. cant work cant play softball. cant even find someone to sit with me and watch a damn movie. what ever i think i mdone. done waiting around. i start looking. but not just for anyone.i want someone who means something. who actually cares about me as much as i do them. im done with one sided shit.