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God smiles when I trust him.
I doubt God has done much smiling in my regards. I would say that i've sunk to a new moral low of late but it's been more of dive than a sink. My purpose is to make God smile not myself. I should and DO take joy in making God happy but it is oh so easy to get your wires crossed. God first and foremost wants a relationship w/ me that can be rivaled by no other. My relationship w/ myself took the drivers seat at the expense of God and those who have grown to care for me.
Putting full trust in God is key. Trusting that God will know what's best for EVERY part of my life and take care of the impossible when need be. This means obeying go blindly w/ out my procrastinating. I really have to ask my self when has waiting to do what i know God wants me to do ever shown to be a great idea...never! This of course means not picking the parts of Gods commands for me that feel are easiest and won't "mess up my game". Man i'm a douche bag.
God deserves my praise. Through out my spree the last few months God has kept my death trap car on the road my bills paid and my art more beautiful than ever! He takes pleasure in keeping me alive putting food in my mouth and furthering my abilities. Meanwhile i haven't so much lifted a finger to thank him for any of this. It's disgusting. It feels good to return to Him.
Psalm 147:11
11 the LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.
As much as it burns me to say this and i KNOW it's my pride that fighting, i need to trust God in my "love life"...uugh when and why did i get so burned out on the word "love".
God smiles when I trust him.
I doubt God has done much smiling in my regards. I would say that i've sunk to a new moral low of late but it's been more of dive than a sink. My purpose is to make God smile not myself. I should and DO take joy in making God happy but it is oh so easy to get your wires crossed. God first and foremost wants a relationship w/ me that can be rivaled by no other. My relationship w/ myself took the drivers seat at the expense of God and those who have grown to care for me.
Putting full trust in God is key. Trusting that God will know what's best for EVERY part of my life and take care of the impossible when need be. This means obeying go blindly w/ out my procrastinating. I really have to ask my self when has waiting to do what i know God wants me to do ever shown to be a great idea...never! This of course means not picking the parts of Gods commands for me that feel are easiest and won't "mess up my game". Man i'm a douche bag.
God deserves my praise. Through out my spree the last few months God has kept my death trap car on the road my bills paid and my art more beautiful than ever! He takes pleasure in keeping me alive putting food in my mouth and furthering my abilities. Meanwhile i haven't so much lifted a finger to thank him for any of this. It's disgusting. It feels good to return to Him.
Psalm 147:11
11 the LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.
As much as it burns me to say this and i KNOW it's my pride that fighting, i need to trust God in my "love life"...uugh when and why did i get so burned out on the word "love".