Living in my eyes (7/7)
Title: Living in My eyes (7/7)
Author: princessliette
Genre: AU
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Jonghyun/Taemin
Summary: He needs to create a new world so he can live peacefully (sucks, i knew it D: )
Disclaimer: *sigh* SMEnt D:
Warning: unbeta-ed. I tried several times to find a beta for this fic, but i don't know why not one of them able to finish beta-ing this fic xD so i decided to just re-post it here unbeta-ed xD so please enjoy this fic as much as you can and please ignore the grammar mistakes /bricked xD
There’s a face I want to see, there’s a voice I want to hear. When I wake up, I want to cry out in joy “Good Morning!”
It had been 6 months since Taemin closed his eyes.
And it had been 6 month too Eunsook tried to find Jonghyun, hoping he could help her to make Taemin opened his eyes. But no one knew where Jonghyun was now. Eunsook felt very frustrated. And so did her umma and appa. Every day they would visit Taemin in the hospital, talked to him, told everything happened in town to him. They always brought Gwiboon with them too, let Gwiboon playing with his beloved brother.
But Taemin never gave them any reaction.
They all still could laugh and their life wasn’t that different without Taemin in their house because from the beginning, Taemin was always stayed in his room. But still, they felt like their life was incomplete. Taemin’s mom didn’t cry a lot like before because now she had to pay 1 year old Gwiboon more attention, but she didn’t laugh as much as before either. Her dad was completely changed. He was smiling a lot but that wasn’t because he happy that Taemin didn’t wake up yet. He did that because he felt guilty. Every day he still was blaming himself about what happened to Taemin. He looked so down and Eunsook couldn’t bear to see his cold hearted appa turned out to be unenergetic person like this.
But Eunsook couldn’t do anything because she was in the miserable position too.
The only one that felt happy without knowing anything was Gwiboon.
----***----
Jonghyun never left Taemin’s side even for once because Taemin said so. He was so afraid these days, he always said to Jonghyun that he heard someone called him every day but he didn’t see anyone. It’s just like there are voices everywhere around him. The voices were so familiar he was really afraid. He thought after he made his appa jumped out from the rooftop, no one would ever bother him anymore but he was totally wrong. Taemin always made sure that Jonghyun wouldn’t leave his side.
That night, he was curling beside Jonghyun with his lover’s arm warp around his little body. It’s already late at night and everyone was sleeping right now. But Taemin couldn’t close his eyes. He heard those voices again, this time it clearer than before. But he still couldn’t get what it said. He covered his ear with both of his hands and shut his eyes forcefully.
“Go away,” he hissed, tried to make the noises ebbed away but it didn’t.
It’s weird, because usually the voices never came out in night time like this. And what made Taemin felt uneasy was the fact that he knew that voice so well. He knew it so well it made him really confused. He didn’t want to wake Jonghyun up because he didn’t want Jonghyun to know that he heard some noises that couldn’t be heard by the other. Just like what had happened before when he could see something that the others couldn’t see.
“Why me? Please don’t do this to me,”
He was sobbing through the night.
While in the real world, Taemin’s appa was tensed up when he saw the tears flowing out from his son’s eyes. Slowly his hand reached Taemin’s cheek and wiped the tears away. Finally after 6 months of waiting, Taemin showed the sign that he heard his father’s voice. “Taeminnie? Do you hear me?” his father whispered in front of Taemin’s face, he had a very soft expression; loving yet anxious and guilty. His hand kept brushing Taemin’s cheek and hair, he hoped Taemin would open his eyes so he could say his sorry to him.
But Taemin still didn’t open his eyes yet.
“Taeminnie,” he once again called his son’s name and got up from his seat, now he was leaning forward to pat his son’s head gently. “Taeminnie, do you hear me? I hope you do because I really want to say my sorry,” his appa’s voice was trembled, full of hope and guilty at the same time. When he had no reply from his son, he decided to tell his family about this moment. He fished out his phone from his pocket and dialed Eunsook’s phone. It’s already past 12am and he didn’t want to bother his wife. When Eunsook picked up his phone, without further ado his father told her what had happened.
“He was crying, no he is crying,” he said, once again wiped away the tears from Taemin’s face.
“Who?” he heard Eunsook’s sleepy voice from the other line.
“Taeminnie, our Taeminnie. He was crying. He heard me.”
In the next few hours, his appa couldn’t close his eyes even for once even after Taemin had stopped crying. His appa kept chanting his sorry to his son, he still hopping that Taemin would open his eyes if he did that. Meanwhile Taemin has already felt asleep with his hand clutching tightly on Jonghyun’s shirt and he had his eyebrows knitted.
When the morning came, he knew that he would never felt the peace anymore, because the voices came more often than usual. Even worse, he could hear it clearer and clearer until he could recognize whose voice it was and what was he said. He felt so confuse, he looked at his surrounding to found that his mom, sisters and Jonghyun was looking at him with weird expression.
He was flustered. He shook his head so hard and covering his ears with both his hands. No one dare to touched him. He could hear it clearly.
“Taeminnie, how are you this morning? Feeling fine?”
That was his sister’s voice, but he could see Eunsook noona in front of her with a worried expression and her mouth stay shut. He didn’t know why he could hear his noona’s voice when in front of him his noona was doing nothing. Then another voices greeted his ears, it was his umma and-and was it Gwiboonnie’s voice?
“Listen Taeminnie, Gwiboon could call your name clearly! She always calls your name every day, everywhere and everytime! I guess she loves you more than she loves her sister and parents,”
“Taeminnie oppa!”
It’s weird but came to think about it, it was his first time hearing Gwiboon’s voice. He looked up to see his mother and Gwiboon. They didn’t say anything but he could hear the voice. Gwiboon’s voice was so cute. And then he could hear it again, Gwiboon calling his name. His body felt limp, he walked backward until his back on the wall. “Gwiboonnie,” he called his sister. But Gwiboon in front of him didn’t give him reaction. She didn’t call his name, she just giggled reaching her hands out. Once again Taemin shook his head, he didn’t understand.
And he could see Jonghyun was walking closer to him, “Taemin, what’s wrong?”
“Please, please tell me you could hear it too,” his voice was weak and begging.
Jonghyun shot him a confused look, “hear what?”
Déjà vu.
“Why-Why it always happened to me? Why?” he started to cry again. He was felt very frustrated. It hurt so much when you could hear or see something that someone couldn’t.
“Oppa! Oppa!”
“Stoop!!” he was very panicked. He looked at everyone with his frustrated eyes. “Stop!” he walked to his room slowly, he couldn’t think straight. He didn’t want this. He just wanted to see him every day, he just wanted to hear his voice, he wanted him to protect him, he wanted to live a peaceful life. He wanted his father to approve what he likes. He just wanted to have a normal life without being hated.
He just wanted to be loved.
“Taeminnie, your appa couldn’t say it directly to you. But he was decided to let you do what you want.”
Taemin closed his door and curled into bed.
“He said that he was so sorry because he always said something harsh to you. But he said he will change from now on.”
“Too late, he has gone now,” he said in whisper.
“He said he always loves you.”
“No, he didn’t.”
“He really loves you.”
“NO, HE DIDN’T!!” he couldn’t stop the tears, he couldn’t stop his whole body from trembling, he couldn’t make the ache in his heart disappear.
“Even he said that he will make you a practice room for you to dance! I was very surprised at first but he really said that! He said it was his gift for you ifyou open your eyes.”
“He wouldn’t.”
“He really loves you, Taemin-ah. Please open your eyes.”
He didn’t say anything this time. He let the unconscious took him away.
----***----
Taemin’s mom was looking at Taemin who still lying on the bed in awed. Taemin was giving her a response! Just like what Taemin’s appa said, he was crying. That’s why his mom kept talking to him, telling him how much his appa loved him. How much she, his sister and Gwiboonnie loved him and she was really happy when she saw a tiny movement from Taemin’s eyebrows. Eunsook jumped from her seat (and she nearly fell down) and she called the nurse and the doctor to told them that once again Taemin was giving them a good response.
The doctor said that in no matter of time, Taemin would open his eyes. His mother couldn’t hide her smile and Eunsook was busy with his phone because finally he found Jonghyun! Eunsook emerged from the room and called Jonghyun, she told him what had happened and why she called him. Eunsook begged to him to help Taemin and fortunately he was agreed.
“I don’t know why but these days I always dreamt about Taemin. At first I didn’t know who is he because I only know him from your story and the old picture and I’m not really sure that the Taemin in my dream was your Taemin,” he said.
Miracle!
Eunsook closed her phone after she told Jonghyun where she was. He really thanked to God that after Jonghyun always had a dreamt about Taemin, he decided to move again to this town. She leaned her head on the wall and smile happily, finally she could see Taemin’s happy smile in a matter of time.
“Eunsook!” she opened her eyes to saw her mother on the door, she was looked very happy and excited. “Call your appa! He’s awake!” she said, her voice too loud and it made him got scolded by the nurse. Eunsook hold her laughter and with trembling hands and a nervous feeling, she called her appa. Her appa cut the line after she said that Taemin awake, she was so sure that right now her appa was on the way to the hospital.
She was expected that the room will full of laughter and cry in joy when she stepped into the room, but she was wrong. Taemin was really wake up. He was now sitting on his bed and looked at his surrounding with confusion look. Her umma didn’t say a thing and she turned her head and looked at Eunsook with a very sad expression. Gwiboon was sleeping in the couch and once again Eunsook’s eyes was darted to confused Taemin.
“Taeminnie?”
He was startled at first and tensed up, but it was loosen when he was sure that it’s only his sister who greeted him.
“Where is Jonghyun?” he asked, his eyes kept skimming the room. “Where is he?”
“He’s on the way, Taeminnie. Your appa too,” Eunsook said calmly as he walked closer to Taemin. When Eunsook said ‘appa’, she could see Taemin’s eyes widen with the word. “What do you mean with appa?” and this time Eunsook was the one who shot him a confused look.
“Your appa Taeminnie, he said he will come here in a minute,”
“No, no it can’t be. He was dead, wasn’t he?! You saw it when it happened noona! Umma, you saw it too right? Me, Jonghyun, you, noona and Gwiboon saw appa jumped from the roof right?” he was screaming and he looked so puzzled while the other two was shocked with what he said. Eunsook and her umma was looking at each other eyes, not sure what to say because they were so sure that his appa was fine. Well, he’s not that fine because Taemin was in bed for 6 month, but he was alive.
Eunsook sat in the edge of bed and grabbed Taemin’s hand slowly. “Taemin, you were dreaming right? Your appa is okay, he’s fine,”Eunsook whispered and Taemin could feel his head was so hurt like hell.
“I don’t understand,”
“Taeminnie!”
The door swung open and his appa jumped into the room and hugged him so tight. He didn’t give Taemin any chances to say a word nor the others to greet him. He hugged Taemin as if he was afraid to lose him. “Taemin-ah, Taemin-ah I’m sorry. I promise I will change and I will never treat you like before. Please forgive me,” he said and he could feel the tears are forming in his eyes. He hoped Taemin would hug him back and say it was okay. But all he got was pushed from Taemin. His appa was taken aback and almost fell to the floor if Eunsook didn’t help him.
Taemin’s eyes were so big and they could feel that Taemin was afraid of his appa. He slowly hugged his legs and buried his head into it. He was rocking forth and back, “no no, it can’t be. Appa has died. I told him to jump from the rooftop and there’s no way he’s here. It must be your imagination, Taeminnie. It’s not real.” Taemin repeat those words over and over again and every time one of them approached him, he would yell like a crazy and shooed them.
When Jonghyun arrived, Taemin was asleep once again.
That night Jonghyun said he would stay in the hospital so Taemin’s parents could take a rest at their home. His appa and umma looked so shocked and down. So right now there are only Jonghyun and Eunsook in Taemin’s room in the hospital. Eunsook was sleeping in the couch already and Jonghyun was sitting in the side of Taemin’s bed. He observed the lithe figure in front of him, “100% the same figure with Taemin who always came to my dream.” His hands brushing over Taemin’s cheek and he caressed Taemin’s face.
He was so beautiful in Jonghyun’s eyes. He had never seen a man beautiful like this and he felt he was already falling in love with this boy. It was like he already knew him for a long time. He might never meet him in real life but they always met in his dream. He already heard the whole story from Eunsook and he really felt sorry about Taemin’s life. But he had to admit that he was felt glad and honored to hear Taemin has created him to be his lover, to be the one who could protect this pretty boy.
A small smile formed on his face as his fingers brushing lightly on Taemin’s lips. It was so soft and Jonghyun wanted to feel it on his own lips. So he leaned closer and closed his eyes, letting his lips met with Taemin’s full and soft lips.
“Ngh-“
Jonghyun backed away and his smile widen when he saw the boy slowly opened his eyes.
‘Sleeping beauty, huh?’
“Good morning,” Jonghyun greeted him with his soft and lovely voice. Taemin sat up slowly from his lying position and tilted his head to the side and observed the figure in front of him.
“You are-“
“Jonghyun,” he said and Jonghyun got up from his seat to sat in Taemin’s bad, closing the gap between them. Taemin didn’t back away and his hands were reaching out to touch Jonghyun’s face. “Warm,” he whispered. This time he could feel the warmth was felt so real. It was the real warmth he looking for. He touched every inch of Jonghyun’s face and looked straight to his brown orbs. Jonghyun did the same, his hands was brushing every skin in Taemin’s face and neck.
Jonghyun smiled and once again his fingers brushed against Taemin’s lips and Taemin gasped but he closed his eyes in instant, enjoy the tingling feeling and the hot feeling in his whole body. “Yes I am warm, because I real,” Jonghyun said.
It’s Déjà vu but this time it felt really real.
“You are real,” his eyes still closed and his head leaned to Jonghyun’s touch. Jonghyun couldn’t resist the cuteness and prettiness in front of him and that was when he once again touched his lips with Taemin’s. Right now none of them broke the kiss, as Taemin circled his arms around Jonghyun’s neck, Jonghyun deepened the kiss. He felt like this was what he wanted since Taemin came to his dream.
They broke the kiss after a couple minutes because they need air breathe. Jonghyun buried his face in Taemin’s neck and kiss him there, making Taemin gasped and hugged him tight. He was his lover and Taemin loved him so much. He liked the feeling when Jonghyun kissed him because it felt real. It was real.
“I missed you,” he said in a husky voice and Taemin could feel his lips ghosting over his neck. Taemin let out a small whimper as he said, “I missed you too.”
Jonghyun then gave him butterfly kiss along his jawline, his cheek and finally his lips again. This was so right. What he was doing was so right and he fell in love. He knew that.
“I love you,” and the tears slide down from Taemin’s eyes.
Finally
He was waiting for those words.
He was waiting for the real Jonghyun to say those words to him.
“I love you too.”
It might be weird if anyone saw them like this. Their first encounter but they were already said 'i love you' to each other. But they didn't care because it was what they felt right now.
Author: princessliette
Genre: AU
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Jonghyun/Taemin
Summary: He needs to create a new world so he can live peacefully (sucks, i knew it D: )
Disclaimer: *sigh* SMEnt D:
Warning: unbeta-ed. I tried several times to find a beta for this fic, but i don't know why not one of them able to finish beta-ing this fic xD so i decided to just re-post it here unbeta-ed xD so please enjoy this fic as much as you can and please ignore the grammar mistakes /bricked xD
There’s a face I want to see, there’s a voice I want to hear. When I wake up, I want to cry out in joy “Good Morning!”
It had been 6 months since Taemin closed his eyes.
And it had been 6 month too Eunsook tried to find Jonghyun, hoping he could help her to make Taemin opened his eyes. But no one knew where Jonghyun was now. Eunsook felt very frustrated. And so did her umma and appa. Every day they would visit Taemin in the hospital, talked to him, told everything happened in town to him. They always brought Gwiboon with them too, let Gwiboon playing with his beloved brother.
But Taemin never gave them any reaction.
They all still could laugh and their life wasn’t that different without Taemin in their house because from the beginning, Taemin was always stayed in his room. But still, they felt like their life was incomplete. Taemin’s mom didn’t cry a lot like before because now she had to pay 1 year old Gwiboon more attention, but she didn’t laugh as much as before either. Her dad was completely changed. He was smiling a lot but that wasn’t because he happy that Taemin didn’t wake up yet. He did that because he felt guilty. Every day he still was blaming himself about what happened to Taemin. He looked so down and Eunsook couldn’t bear to see his cold hearted appa turned out to be unenergetic person like this.
But Eunsook couldn’t do anything because she was in the miserable position too.
The only one that felt happy without knowing anything was Gwiboon.
----***----
Jonghyun never left Taemin’s side even for once because Taemin said so. He was so afraid these days, he always said to Jonghyun that he heard someone called him every day but he didn’t see anyone. It’s just like there are voices everywhere around him. The voices were so familiar he was really afraid. He thought after he made his appa jumped out from the rooftop, no one would ever bother him anymore but he was totally wrong. Taemin always made sure that Jonghyun wouldn’t leave his side.
That night, he was curling beside Jonghyun with his lover’s arm warp around his little body. It’s already late at night and everyone was sleeping right now. But Taemin couldn’t close his eyes. He heard those voices again, this time it clearer than before. But he still couldn’t get what it said. He covered his ear with both of his hands and shut his eyes forcefully.
“Go away,” he hissed, tried to make the noises ebbed away but it didn’t.
It’s weird, because usually the voices never came out in night time like this. And what made Taemin felt uneasy was the fact that he knew that voice so well. He knew it so well it made him really confused. He didn’t want to wake Jonghyun up because he didn’t want Jonghyun to know that he heard some noises that couldn’t be heard by the other. Just like what had happened before when he could see something that the others couldn’t see.
“Why me? Please don’t do this to me,”
He was sobbing through the night.
While in the real world, Taemin’s appa was tensed up when he saw the tears flowing out from his son’s eyes. Slowly his hand reached Taemin’s cheek and wiped the tears away. Finally after 6 months of waiting, Taemin showed the sign that he heard his father’s voice. “Taeminnie? Do you hear me?” his father whispered in front of Taemin’s face, he had a very soft expression; loving yet anxious and guilty. His hand kept brushing Taemin’s cheek and hair, he hoped Taemin would open his eyes so he could say his sorry to him.
But Taemin still didn’t open his eyes yet.
“Taeminnie,” he once again called his son’s name and got up from his seat, now he was leaning forward to pat his son’s head gently. “Taeminnie, do you hear me? I hope you do because I really want to say my sorry,” his appa’s voice was trembled, full of hope and guilty at the same time. When he had no reply from his son, he decided to tell his family about this moment. He fished out his phone from his pocket and dialed Eunsook’s phone. It’s already past 12am and he didn’t want to bother his wife. When Eunsook picked up his phone, without further ado his father told her what had happened.
“He was crying, no he is crying,” he said, once again wiped away the tears from Taemin’s face.
“Who?” he heard Eunsook’s sleepy voice from the other line.
“Taeminnie, our Taeminnie. He was crying. He heard me.”
In the next few hours, his appa couldn’t close his eyes even for once even after Taemin had stopped crying. His appa kept chanting his sorry to his son, he still hopping that Taemin would open his eyes if he did that. Meanwhile Taemin has already felt asleep with his hand clutching tightly on Jonghyun’s shirt and he had his eyebrows knitted.
When the morning came, he knew that he would never felt the peace anymore, because the voices came more often than usual. Even worse, he could hear it clearer and clearer until he could recognize whose voice it was and what was he said. He felt so confuse, he looked at his surrounding to found that his mom, sisters and Jonghyun was looking at him with weird expression.
He was flustered. He shook his head so hard and covering his ears with both his hands. No one dare to touched him. He could hear it clearly.
“Taeminnie, how are you this morning? Feeling fine?”
That was his sister’s voice, but he could see Eunsook noona in front of her with a worried expression and her mouth stay shut. He didn’t know why he could hear his noona’s voice when in front of him his noona was doing nothing. Then another voices greeted his ears, it was his umma and-and was it Gwiboonnie’s voice?
“Listen Taeminnie, Gwiboon could call your name clearly! She always calls your name every day, everywhere and everytime! I guess she loves you more than she loves her sister and parents,”
“Taeminnie oppa!”
It’s weird but came to think about it, it was his first time hearing Gwiboon’s voice. He looked up to see his mother and Gwiboon. They didn’t say anything but he could hear the voice. Gwiboon’s voice was so cute. And then he could hear it again, Gwiboon calling his name. His body felt limp, he walked backward until his back on the wall. “Gwiboonnie,” he called his sister. But Gwiboon in front of him didn’t give him reaction. She didn’t call his name, she just giggled reaching her hands out. Once again Taemin shook his head, he didn’t understand.
And he could see Jonghyun was walking closer to him, “Taemin, what’s wrong?”
“Please, please tell me you could hear it too,” his voice was weak and begging.
Jonghyun shot him a confused look, “hear what?”
Déjà vu.
“Why-Why it always happened to me? Why?” he started to cry again. He was felt very frustrated. It hurt so much when you could hear or see something that someone couldn’t.
“Oppa! Oppa!”
“Stoop!!” he was very panicked. He looked at everyone with his frustrated eyes. “Stop!” he walked to his room slowly, he couldn’t think straight. He didn’t want this. He just wanted to see him every day, he just wanted to hear his voice, he wanted him to protect him, he wanted to live a peaceful life. He wanted his father to approve what he likes. He just wanted to have a normal life without being hated.
He just wanted to be loved.
“Taeminnie, your appa couldn’t say it directly to you. But he was decided to let you do what you want.”
Taemin closed his door and curled into bed.
“He said that he was so sorry because he always said something harsh to you. But he said he will change from now on.”
“Too late, he has gone now,” he said in whisper.
“He said he always loves you.”
“No, he didn’t.”
“He really loves you.”
“NO, HE DIDN’T!!” he couldn’t stop the tears, he couldn’t stop his whole body from trembling, he couldn’t make the ache in his heart disappear.
“Even he said that he will make you a practice room for you to dance! I was very surprised at first but he really said that! He said it was his gift for you ifyou open your eyes.”
“He wouldn’t.”
“He really loves you, Taemin-ah. Please open your eyes.”
He didn’t say anything this time. He let the unconscious took him away.
----***----
Taemin’s mom was looking at Taemin who still lying on the bed in awed. Taemin was giving her a response! Just like what Taemin’s appa said, he was crying. That’s why his mom kept talking to him, telling him how much his appa loved him. How much she, his sister and Gwiboonnie loved him and she was really happy when she saw a tiny movement from Taemin’s eyebrows. Eunsook jumped from her seat (and she nearly fell down) and she called the nurse and the doctor to told them that once again Taemin was giving them a good response.
The doctor said that in no matter of time, Taemin would open his eyes. His mother couldn’t hide her smile and Eunsook was busy with his phone because finally he found Jonghyun! Eunsook emerged from the room and called Jonghyun, she told him what had happened and why she called him. Eunsook begged to him to help Taemin and fortunately he was agreed.
“I don’t know why but these days I always dreamt about Taemin. At first I didn’t know who is he because I only know him from your story and the old picture and I’m not really sure that the Taemin in my dream was your Taemin,” he said.
Miracle!
Eunsook closed her phone after she told Jonghyun where she was. He really thanked to God that after Jonghyun always had a dreamt about Taemin, he decided to move again to this town. She leaned her head on the wall and smile happily, finally she could see Taemin’s happy smile in a matter of time.
“Eunsook!” she opened her eyes to saw her mother on the door, she was looked very happy and excited. “Call your appa! He’s awake!” she said, her voice too loud and it made him got scolded by the nurse. Eunsook hold her laughter and with trembling hands and a nervous feeling, she called her appa. Her appa cut the line after she said that Taemin awake, she was so sure that right now her appa was on the way to the hospital.
She was expected that the room will full of laughter and cry in joy when she stepped into the room, but she was wrong. Taemin was really wake up. He was now sitting on his bed and looked at his surrounding with confusion look. Her umma didn’t say a thing and she turned her head and looked at Eunsook with a very sad expression. Gwiboon was sleeping in the couch and once again Eunsook’s eyes was darted to confused Taemin.
“Taeminnie?”
He was startled at first and tensed up, but it was loosen when he was sure that it’s only his sister who greeted him.
“Where is Jonghyun?” he asked, his eyes kept skimming the room. “Where is he?”
“He’s on the way, Taeminnie. Your appa too,” Eunsook said calmly as he walked closer to Taemin. When Eunsook said ‘appa’, she could see Taemin’s eyes widen with the word. “What do you mean with appa?” and this time Eunsook was the one who shot him a confused look.
“Your appa Taeminnie, he said he will come here in a minute,”
“No, no it can’t be. He was dead, wasn’t he?! You saw it when it happened noona! Umma, you saw it too right? Me, Jonghyun, you, noona and Gwiboon saw appa jumped from the roof right?” he was screaming and he looked so puzzled while the other two was shocked with what he said. Eunsook and her umma was looking at each other eyes, not sure what to say because they were so sure that his appa was fine. Well, he’s not that fine because Taemin was in bed for 6 month, but he was alive.
Eunsook sat in the edge of bed and grabbed Taemin’s hand slowly. “Taemin, you were dreaming right? Your appa is okay, he’s fine,”Eunsook whispered and Taemin could feel his head was so hurt like hell.
“I don’t understand,”
“Taeminnie!”
The door swung open and his appa jumped into the room and hugged him so tight. He didn’t give Taemin any chances to say a word nor the others to greet him. He hugged Taemin as if he was afraid to lose him. “Taemin-ah, Taemin-ah I’m sorry. I promise I will change and I will never treat you like before. Please forgive me,” he said and he could feel the tears are forming in his eyes. He hoped Taemin would hug him back and say it was okay. But all he got was pushed from Taemin. His appa was taken aback and almost fell to the floor if Eunsook didn’t help him.
Taemin’s eyes were so big and they could feel that Taemin was afraid of his appa. He slowly hugged his legs and buried his head into it. He was rocking forth and back, “no no, it can’t be. Appa has died. I told him to jump from the rooftop and there’s no way he’s here. It must be your imagination, Taeminnie. It’s not real.” Taemin repeat those words over and over again and every time one of them approached him, he would yell like a crazy and shooed them.
When Jonghyun arrived, Taemin was asleep once again.
That night Jonghyun said he would stay in the hospital so Taemin’s parents could take a rest at their home. His appa and umma looked so shocked and down. So right now there are only Jonghyun and Eunsook in Taemin’s room in the hospital. Eunsook was sleeping in the couch already and Jonghyun was sitting in the side of Taemin’s bed. He observed the lithe figure in front of him, “100% the same figure with Taemin who always came to my dream.” His hands brushing over Taemin’s cheek and he caressed Taemin’s face.
He was so beautiful in Jonghyun’s eyes. He had never seen a man beautiful like this and he felt he was already falling in love with this boy. It was like he already knew him for a long time. He might never meet him in real life but they always met in his dream. He already heard the whole story from Eunsook and he really felt sorry about Taemin’s life. But he had to admit that he was felt glad and honored to hear Taemin has created him to be his lover, to be the one who could protect this pretty boy.
A small smile formed on his face as his fingers brushing lightly on Taemin’s lips. It was so soft and Jonghyun wanted to feel it on his own lips. So he leaned closer and closed his eyes, letting his lips met with Taemin’s full and soft lips.
“Ngh-“
Jonghyun backed away and his smile widen when he saw the boy slowly opened his eyes.
‘Sleeping beauty, huh?’
“Good morning,” Jonghyun greeted him with his soft and lovely voice. Taemin sat up slowly from his lying position and tilted his head to the side and observed the figure in front of him.
“You are-“
“Jonghyun,” he said and Jonghyun got up from his seat to sat in Taemin’s bad, closing the gap between them. Taemin didn’t back away and his hands were reaching out to touch Jonghyun’s face. “Warm,” he whispered. This time he could feel the warmth was felt so real. It was the real warmth he looking for. He touched every inch of Jonghyun’s face and looked straight to his brown orbs. Jonghyun did the same, his hands was brushing every skin in Taemin’s face and neck.
Jonghyun smiled and once again his fingers brushed against Taemin’s lips and Taemin gasped but he closed his eyes in instant, enjoy the tingling feeling and the hot feeling in his whole body. “Yes I am warm, because I real,” Jonghyun said.
It’s Déjà vu but this time it felt really real.
“You are real,” his eyes still closed and his head leaned to Jonghyun’s touch. Jonghyun couldn’t resist the cuteness and prettiness in front of him and that was when he once again touched his lips with Taemin’s. Right now none of them broke the kiss, as Taemin circled his arms around Jonghyun’s neck, Jonghyun deepened the kiss. He felt like this was what he wanted since Taemin came to his dream.
They broke the kiss after a couple minutes because they need air breathe. Jonghyun buried his face in Taemin’s neck and kiss him there, making Taemin gasped and hugged him tight. He was his lover and Taemin loved him so much. He liked the feeling when Jonghyun kissed him because it felt real. It was real.
“I missed you,” he said in a husky voice and Taemin could feel his lips ghosting over his neck. Taemin let out a small whimper as he said, “I missed you too.”
Jonghyun then gave him butterfly kiss along his jawline, his cheek and finally his lips again. This was so right. What he was doing was so right and he fell in love. He knew that.
“I love you,” and the tears slide down from Taemin’s eyes.
Finally
He was waiting for those words.
He was waiting for the real Jonghyun to say those words to him.
“I love you too.”
It might be weird if anyone saw them like this. Their first encounter but they were already said 'i love you' to each other. But they didn't care because it was what they felt right now.