dont walk away, dont walk away.

[warm_my_heart]

when the ending comes, the full regret will seem obscure.

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impatient.
irritable.
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i miss those days when i had control over my surroundings.
when people thought what i wanted them to think about me.

the words i say arent meant for anyone.
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i miss those days when these entries would make things better, atleast for a few obscure hours.
when you would call me and make everything better.
when my clumsy love would cover up all else that was wrong.

but then do i really want that?

or do i want to walk away.
from everyone, from everything, and never risk walking with you again.
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i wish i could live within a song.
that i could curl up into the lyrics and let it wash over me and protect me.
i dont want it to solve anything, im not looking for a cure.
i just want it to help me exist.