Alterations
Some life altering things have happened in my life recently and has been a major contribution as to why I have not posted anything for about a month. I figured I would share them with you guys, if anyone still reads this.
I lost a a friend a few weeks ago. Hated by so many people I was one of his few friends (and I could dare say I simply tolerated him) and he went out of his way to humiliate me in front of this circle that the situation was... extreme. His malicious act, he deemed simply as 'a joke' was unforgivable to the point I can no longer talk to him. That he went out of his way to do such a thing, then laugh in my face about it (literally) and then NEVER even attempt to apologize...
The thought of this situation angers me just by bringing it up. This must be what an emotional scar feels like. This is how bad that situation was. That act has changed me, many though, would say for the better.
I have gained greater clerity and a superior determination of mind that i thought I did not have. I have siezed the initiative and been promoted at work, opened doors that i thought were closed, made new friends, removed things from my life that I have simply been tolerating and finally told a number of people just how it was going to be. I am no longer going to be the overly reserved, polite, doormat that I have been treated as by certain individuals in the past. They know this, because i've looked them in the eye and TOLD THEM this. My reserve is held in check only by Decorum and Politeness I have said. Nothing more.
While these sudden changes have erupted in my life, my friends, my family, have seen this and are happy for me for it. I've been told by many people that they see it as an improvment, and i feel there is no end in sight. This change, also, has lead me on a most wonderful path. Without it I would have never had the opportunity, or the luck, to find the women of my dreams. The day of my birthday was the day I met her, and every day after has become more amazing then the day before it, and she feels the same way. It is totally surreal to be approached by a women and she whispers in your ear "I totally deserve you. So where have you been all my life?" Its just... well... ME!
I lost a a friend a few weeks ago. Hated by so many people I was one of his few friends (and I could dare say I simply tolerated him) and he went out of his way to humiliate me in front of this circle that the situation was... extreme. His malicious act, he deemed simply as 'a joke' was unforgivable to the point I can no longer talk to him. That he went out of his way to do such a thing, then laugh in my face about it (literally) and then NEVER even attempt to apologize...
The thought of this situation angers me just by bringing it up. This must be what an emotional scar feels like. This is how bad that situation was. That act has changed me, many though, would say for the better.
I have gained greater clerity and a superior determination of mind that i thought I did not have. I have siezed the initiative and been promoted at work, opened doors that i thought were closed, made new friends, removed things from my life that I have simply been tolerating and finally told a number of people just how it was going to be. I am no longer going to be the overly reserved, polite, doormat that I have been treated as by certain individuals in the past. They know this, because i've looked them in the eye and TOLD THEM this. My reserve is held in check only by Decorum and Politeness I have said. Nothing more.
While these sudden changes have erupted in my life, my friends, my family, have seen this and are happy for me for it. I've been told by many people that they see it as an improvment, and i feel there is no end in sight. This change, also, has lead me on a most wonderful path. Without it I would have never had the opportunity, or the luck, to find the women of my dreams. The day of my birthday was the day I met her, and every day after has become more amazing then the day before it, and she feels the same way. It is totally surreal to be approached by a women and she whispers in your ear "I totally deserve you. So where have you been all my life?" Its just... well... ME!