Abstractionage
Tossing and turning, trying to fall asleep for the next work day... couldnt do it. A bad back made me get out of bed and jott down some thoughts. Been a little anxious for the seemingly so close future of graduating. Can't picture a single of my childhood ambitions being acted out and turned into concrete.
I turn and pop in my music selection and it seems to work. But its only a fantasy im acting out. Its nothing really, nothing has happened. I wish I could but im defective.
How did I get here? I tried hard. I weaved past many obstacles just to be here. And its wrong. Completely wrong.
It chips away at me. Consuming me bit by bit but till when? Can't it just go away? It lingers around and daunts me for as long as I can remember. When did it have such a strong grasp? Its unslayable.
I know it was wrong. It was hard but it was the only way. The dreams tell me it can be okay but its only a dream. Some things go well but it could be better. I just didnt want to go.
Drop the safety net, I've been dangling long enough. But keep it for safe keeping, they might just push to keep me down.
Round 2
I turn and pop in my music selection and it seems to work. But its only a fantasy im acting out. Its nothing really, nothing has happened. I wish I could but im defective.
How did I get here? I tried hard. I weaved past many obstacles just to be here. And its wrong. Completely wrong.
It chips away at me. Consuming me bit by bit but till when? Can't it just go away? It lingers around and daunts me for as long as I can remember. When did it have such a strong grasp? Its unslayable.
I know it was wrong. It was hard but it was the only way. The dreams tell me it can be okay but its only a dream. Some things go well but it could be better. I just didnt want to go.
Drop the safety net, I've been dangling long enough. But keep it for safe keeping, they might just push to keep me down.
Round 2