I'm mad. I forgot telling people ran into my friend Alan playing guitar in the park, after I got a haircut. I haven't seen the dude in a while. He's fun. He strummed a lot. I told him about the past few months. He smiled. He said don't get hurt, and hopes the best for me. Alan was a bit sad. He then started to sing this:
Revolve- Nine Days
I want to crawl inside your womb,
I want to watch the rose on your cheeks bloom.
I want to be the face in the moon,
And watch the stars spin around your room.
All your carefully worded letters,
And your carefully spoken words.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
Who understands who reaches out with both hands.
And even while your fading I'm just shivering and waiting.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
I want to drink deep from your well,
I want to be the heart for which you fell.
I want to be a shooting star,
Across the heavens to be where you are.
All your carefully worded letters,
And your carefully spoken words.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
Who understands who reaches out with both hands.
And even while your fading I'm just shivering and waiting.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
I want to crawl inside your womb,
I want to watch the rose on your cheeks bloom.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
Who understands who reaches out with both hands.
And even while your fading I'm just shivering and waiting.
Who understands who reaches out with both hands.
And even while your fading I'm just shivering and waiting.
I will continue to evolve,
I will continue to revolve around your sun.
'Cause you are the only one!...
Time missing out.
You're missing out.
I'm missing out.
We're missing out.
You are the only one...
Time missing out.
You're missing out.
I'm missing out.
We're missing out.
You are the only one...
I got all teary throughout the song. Alan sounded wonderful. Some kid asked if the song was for me. He was like well the dude she has should mean it. He's just a musician. I told him how scared I was that my feelings for Marc were coming so fast. He said "shouldn't they?" :/
A man then came by and dropped a dollar in his cup of coffee. He didn't know if he should be mad or if he should be glad. We both decided he should be happy. He then sang a bunch of other songs. He did some Nirvana for his sake and he did a Carpenters song for me. Loco.
I still am a bit scared how fast these emotions came. Marc said he isn't scared. That's good. I'm just afraid of losing everything and it jsut crashing around me. I realized that when I was actually writing in my journal. I started to analyze, and I got scared. I love how I feel. I don't want to lose it ever. My heart feels great.