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my grandma had a heart attack today and was on the floor for hours until my uncle came over to see how she was doing (she lives by herself since my granpda died). he took her to the E.R. and she had a heart attack and a stroke, plus they think her kidneys are beginning to shut down. she is unable to walk and if she gets out of the hospital she will be put in a nursing home. my mom and uncle have decided not to recessitate her if it comes down to that. she is my only grandma that i know and the story is more complicated than that but i wont write about it here because it is disrespectful to her. i hope she is ok... i want to go to oklahoma so bad to visit and i know i should have done that a long time ago. i am scared that i will have to go through another funeral in the same year again and have my family give me disapproving looks AGAIN and having to see another casket and both my grandparents buried... i cant do it. i will be so glad when this year is fucking OVER.