Ah life, it just keeps on going.

[warehousebitch]

So lately I have been feeling myself falling back into a rutt that I'm afraid of getting back into. I've been getting more and more depressed with how freaking hard it is to find a job. I've filled out numerous applications to absolutely no avail. Not a single phone call. My bank account is practically laughing at me b/c of how pathetic it is and I'm feeling worse and worse every morning. I hardly sleep at night and when I do it's not restful at all. My mom has been really cool about helping me out, but that only depresses me further b/c I don't want to burden her with my problems. What makes everything even worse is I'm sick of being poked fun at b/c I don't have a job. I went with Donna the other day when she got her tattoo and even Aaron (the guy who does our ink) was making comments and saying shit about me being unemployeed and it really upset me. I'm tired of not having money, I'm tired of not being able to go out and do the things I want to. Hockey just started 2 weeks ago, but I can't afford to play and that used to be my major outlet for stress. There are some movies coming out that I've really been looking forward to seeing, but I can't even afford that either.

At this point I'm losing what little motivation I have left and I can't stand it.