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Read the entry from like 20 mminutes ago before this one...it'll make alotttt more sence.
So yeah, since I last updated a few minutes ago...I've been thinking about alot.
Taylor was like, my best friend. How does that happen? Like...Wow. All of those memories are gone. Thats so fucking upsetting almost. Like, I'm not gonna say is what happened today shouldn't have happened...because she deserved it. But man. Like all the times. Going to Cameron's, going to Martin's, Nick's, Pete's, Wes's. Being chased by the cops, driving around the ghetto just for fun, high speed chases at 2 oclock in the morning, CIA, like...shit. Thats alot of things just gone. Thats really sad. THeres nothing like loosing a really good friend. It didn't really kick into me until like, 10 minutes ago. But I won't take the blame for this. I didn't do anything wrong. So she can kiss my ass. But still, thats upsetting.
So now I realized I don't want friends. Well, I realized that a while ago. I have friends...and I love every single one of them. Maybe that was the thing, all my friends that I had that didn't really like? But I don't know. I just don't want friends anymore. Maybe its not that, maybe I'm done with the drama, the fighting, the shit talking, the backstabbing. All of it. I only want to be with people who aren't aimed to tear eachother down. That kills me. Really, in the end its basically killed me.
I'm glad I realized this. I'm glad me and Taylor aren't friends anymore. I'm glad me and Raquel aren't friends anymore. Me and Melissa barely aren't friends anymore, and thats really sad. Why would she basically take Raquel's side? Thats upsetting.
Well yeah. I'm in a super emo mood right now so I'm gonna stop talking before I sound dumb.
Kay, bye.
So yeah, since I last updated a few minutes ago...I've been thinking about alot.
Taylor was like, my best friend. How does that happen? Like...Wow. All of those memories are gone. Thats so fucking upsetting almost. Like, I'm not gonna say is what happened today shouldn't have happened...because she deserved it. But man. Like all the times. Going to Cameron's, going to Martin's, Nick's, Pete's, Wes's. Being chased by the cops, driving around the ghetto just for fun, high speed chases at 2 oclock in the morning, CIA, like...shit. Thats alot of things just gone. Thats really sad. THeres nothing like loosing a really good friend. It didn't really kick into me until like, 10 minutes ago. But I won't take the blame for this. I didn't do anything wrong. So she can kiss my ass. But still, thats upsetting.
So now I realized I don't want friends. Well, I realized that a while ago. I have friends...and I love every single one of them. Maybe that was the thing, all my friends that I had that didn't really like? But I don't know. I just don't want friends anymore. Maybe its not that, maybe I'm done with the drama, the fighting, the shit talking, the backstabbing. All of it. I only want to be with people who aren't aimed to tear eachother down. That kills me. Really, in the end its basically killed me.
I'm glad I realized this. I'm glad me and Taylor aren't friends anymore. I'm glad me and Raquel aren't friends anymore. Me and Melissa barely aren't friends anymore, and thats really sad. Why would she basically take Raquel's side? Thats upsetting.
Well yeah. I'm in a super emo mood right now so I'm gonna stop talking before I sound dumb.
Kay, bye.