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Oh man...so last night was horrible. I"m suprised I'm still here, really.
It all started because I wanted to drive around with Jared and Alex (Aka "Moto" or "street fighter") Because they came to get me. So I left at like 530 didn't get home till about 730 I guess. So yeah, Mom said no but I left anway... me and Chelsea and we just were up in my room listening to music once we got home, and doing nothing really. So my Dad called me downstairs and bitched at me. I was just like whtaever fuck you and wnet back upstairs. Then he yelled at me, so Chelsea had to leave...then he took my modem cuz I was online so took the wireless chip out of my computer. So I was pissed and locked my door and turned up some insane cd that I got from Daniel a while back thats like incredibly hardcore like waaa psychotic. So yeah, I turned that up as loud as I could...it goes loud as sht, and Dad was beating on my door, so I moved the bed and dresser infront of it so he couldnt get in. He broke down my door. Busted in and just lashed out. Everything in sight was destroyed. I just sat there and took it, I sat there like a little bitch and didn't do shit. But so he took everything. My cd's, phone, cell phone, stereo, fucking everything. So I just was like sitting here, and he comes up and takes off my door knob, so now I can't get out of my fucking room, but he can get in. Hmm...fucked up? Yes. So I was bitching at him, and he came at me again. It was insane. I've never been more fucking scared in my life. I still am like...shook up about it. Mom just sat there and watched him do it. She sat there and fucking took his side. That killed me. How could you do that? How can you watch that and not do shit? So I was locked in my room all the rest of the night, but got to get my bookbag from downstairs and stole Mom's modem of her laptop, so thats how I got on. But this morning he let me out at like 5 when he wetn to work and left my door open, like I'm in a fucking cage, and I got my modem back, my Cd's back, and my door knob, and my phone but not my cell phone.
So I wanted to leave...but I was thinking, whats that gonna do? Unless someone was coming with me, but I would be alone. Thats pointless. I'm only grounded a week. i have everytihng back except my cell phone. They can't stop me from leaving. Let him touch me again. I'll fucking kill him.
I'm like dead inside. I realized that today. I'm like dying from the inside out. I knew it was only time until I started showing it. Today I jsut lost it like, 10 times. I cried in school. The second time I"ve ever done that. That killed me. I skipped fourth period with Jared. Jareds gonna fuck my Dad up tonight. He deserves every fucking bit of it.
I think I'm gonna go...bye.
It all started because I wanted to drive around with Jared and Alex (Aka "Moto" or "street fighter") Because they came to get me. So I left at like 530 didn't get home till about 730 I guess. So yeah, Mom said no but I left anway... me and Chelsea and we just were up in my room listening to music once we got home, and doing nothing really. So my Dad called me downstairs and bitched at me. I was just like whtaever fuck you and wnet back upstairs. Then he yelled at me, so Chelsea had to leave...then he took my modem cuz I was online so took the wireless chip out of my computer. So I was pissed and locked my door and turned up some insane cd that I got from Daniel a while back thats like incredibly hardcore like waaa psychotic. So yeah, I turned that up as loud as I could...it goes loud as sht, and Dad was beating on my door, so I moved the bed and dresser infront of it so he couldnt get in. He broke down my door. Busted in and just lashed out. Everything in sight was destroyed. I just sat there and took it, I sat there like a little bitch and didn't do shit. But so he took everything. My cd's, phone, cell phone, stereo, fucking everything. So I just was like sitting here, and he comes up and takes off my door knob, so now I can't get out of my fucking room, but he can get in. Hmm...fucked up? Yes. So I was bitching at him, and he came at me again. It was insane. I've never been more fucking scared in my life. I still am like...shook up about it. Mom just sat there and watched him do it. She sat there and fucking took his side. That killed me. How could you do that? How can you watch that and not do shit? So I was locked in my room all the rest of the night, but got to get my bookbag from downstairs and stole Mom's modem of her laptop, so thats how I got on. But this morning he let me out at like 5 when he wetn to work and left my door open, like I'm in a fucking cage, and I got my modem back, my Cd's back, and my door knob, and my phone but not my cell phone.
So I wanted to leave...but I was thinking, whats that gonna do? Unless someone was coming with me, but I would be alone. Thats pointless. I'm only grounded a week. i have everytihng back except my cell phone. They can't stop me from leaving. Let him touch me again. I'll fucking kill him.
I'm like dead inside. I realized that today. I'm like dying from the inside out. I knew it was only time until I started showing it. Today I jsut lost it like, 10 times. I cried in school. The second time I"ve ever done that. That killed me. I skipped fourth period with Jared. Jareds gonna fuck my Dad up tonight. He deserves every fucking bit of it.
I think I'm gonna go...bye.