hi...
hello again,
far inbetween entries i know, im still here and kickin, but thats about it.
ya know, i really hate it when someone you know or think of as a friend sort of washes you under the bridge. Not blatently throw you away but just sort of drifts because either of you dont work together or dont call but its another to plan a big event and invite people you maybe know through another person but dont invite people you worked with or have gone out with to party with and talk about this in front of you. that just hurts.
i dont know, sometimes the new friends you make sometimes dont work out for one reason or another and it just dies. Should have tried harder or picked up the phone or just say screw it and move along, well thats fine and dandy, someone show me how and i will.
this isnt how i wanted this journal to be written but is hard sometimes to say what you are thinking or feeling and put into typed words esp..
Jlite says i need to take a vacation to get away from some of this, but to me thats running away. Everytime i get depressed or frustrated i dont want to keep running home. Then again it could be a recharging of the ole batteries and such to get through. Thing is, should i need a recharge every six months if everything was honkydory in life? i get so frustrated at times i yell at my computer now and bust a vien in my head, i actually feel better when i do that but not good for the heart :).
im frustrated, at whati dont know, life, people, family, friends, boyfriends, games, pets, housing, just times lately i just want to scream or cry or sleep or eat or dance or laugh, god maybe im pregneant?(god i would be soooo rich) who knows.
well, iv rambled too much, said too many things, take care all, and be safe
far inbetween entries i know, im still here and kickin, but thats about it.
ya know, i really hate it when someone you know or think of as a friend sort of washes you under the bridge. Not blatently throw you away but just sort of drifts because either of you dont work together or dont call but its another to plan a big event and invite people you maybe know through another person but dont invite people you worked with or have gone out with to party with and talk about this in front of you. that just hurts.
i dont know, sometimes the new friends you make sometimes dont work out for one reason or another and it just dies. Should have tried harder or picked up the phone or just say screw it and move along, well thats fine and dandy, someone show me how and i will.
this isnt how i wanted this journal to be written but is hard sometimes to say what you are thinking or feeling and put into typed words esp..
Jlite says i need to take a vacation to get away from some of this, but to me thats running away. Everytime i get depressed or frustrated i dont want to keep running home. Then again it could be a recharging of the ole batteries and such to get through. Thing is, should i need a recharge every six months if everything was honkydory in life? i get so frustrated at times i yell at my computer now and bust a vien in my head, i actually feel better when i do that but not good for the heart :).
im frustrated, at whati dont know, life, people, family, friends, boyfriends, games, pets, housing, just times lately i just want to scream or cry or sleep or eat or dance or laugh, god maybe im pregneant?(god i would be soooo rich) who knows.
well, iv rambled too much, said too many things, take care all, and be safe