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Yo, Happy Fucking New Year!
Ive made a few resolutions but, I need a little time to compile the list.
I spent New Years at KTG's house and we had fun. My friend Emily had a hookup with a middle school friend. It was epic. Im glad for her even though I admit that Im jealous. Not only because I she got some action but, because I happned to like this German for awhile. But, honestly, good for her! *big happy face*
I admit that I need to hang out with this group of friends more often because I miss them. And, they always have somehing going on and they all are good friends to each other. Even though I may have said some bad things about Emily I take them all back.
KTG and I talked about it and I understand now. It really is all Hurban's fault.
I made a wrong move when I surrendered my heart to this boy; he went for my friends and never had the fucking balls to tell me wht he felt. And, he mustve either felt bad or compelled to make it up to me when he held me that one night. As if to say Im sorry but, you know this cannot work. But, I misinterpretted it. He really was an asshole, I feel whole now. Now that I know the truth.
I know its too late to apologize for my nay-saying because Emoline doesnt like conflict or confrontation; I cant hurt her like that, or any worse than I have. What I can do is support her in her choice and hold her when she needs it. Im forever grateful for her support when I needed it the most; i owe her alot.
I hung out with KTG and Nicole Hernandez tonight; we went to the Oasis where we met lots of people I knew.
We ran into Ariel Pellet but, I dont think she recognized me, then a guy Sam dated (Francie's dumb Sam), and Ian and his ridiculously adorable girlfriend with an alkalin trio hoodie on (Ian had the best pair of tripp oxfords on. fuck, he has better style than I do...wtf) and then Mindy and her bf Bill showed up. He's one of hose bigger guys that you would see working at a comic book shop; but he was FULL of interesting things to say. I admitted to the table that it is MUCH better to have a group of people drinking coffee at the oasis instead of just one or two.
I made a careful observation in my head that there were three kinds of relationships around me. Mindy and Bill were at the early stage of being together, having fun and loving each other. KTG and Jake where theyve been together for a few years and are engaged, living together and bickering like old married ouples. They have rel live problems and they still love each other even thoughthey fight over stupid things. Emily and the German, a new relationship; while Emily ends an old dead one. Nicole who recently ended her relationship painfully; where Nick wants to be together but, they are too different to work. She said theyd be perfect friends and that she still cares for him. I hope we can still all hangout build fires, go to now abndoned parks and walk in the dark. And then, theres me undoubtedly single and hopelessly looking. 5 stages of relationships all at a table. Oh, Ian and Amber have been together just as long as Mindy and Bill.
New Years Resolutions:
Coffee and cigarette diet: a maybe.
Portion control: A go.
Eating a least one vegetable a meal: yay.
Drawing at least one drawing a day: already in effect.
-one in dirty sketchbook
-one in regular sketchbook
-one in comic sketchbook (drawing OR planning)
-optional ^^
Get a substantial job and save money
Try very hard in school and get at LEAST a C or better in all classes.
Listen to all cds Kyle burnt me: and share them.
Look for more music
Be more social and make new friends! Dont be shy: confidence does wonders!!!
Caffeinne addiction IS NOT BAD FOR YOU
Lose at least 30 pounds: slowly excercise (dog walking, walking to jogging with distance also increasing)
Keep MY DAMN ROOM CLEAN
Have more sleepovers
Embrace the young adult libido. it wont last forever
Take care of asthma, psoriasis, weight, peace of mind, and anger "Fake it till you feel it."
Plan better: make use of a planner/calendar **
Theres my list love.
Goodnight; I must draw and finish my cd ripping.
ps: I ws looking through Craigslist men seeking women and I came across this 24 year old man who seemed pretty substantial so I sent him an email back. I hope thats not too desperate of me... Hes from Rochelle, im not sure how far away that is though. Hopefully I can find a job and afford to have gas in my car... I have 20 bucks until I get a job... Mum owes me at least ten for me buying groceries and TP. Okay, I need to be up early for the job hunt tomorrow. I have to get a resume going for the Daily Times receptionist job and the Circulation Assistant for Reddick. Both of which I'd love! okay, nini!
Ive made a few resolutions but, I need a little time to compile the list.
I spent New Years at KTG's house and we had fun. My friend Emily had a hookup with a middle school friend. It was epic. Im glad for her even though I admit that Im jealous. Not only because I she got some action but, because I happned to like this German for awhile. But, honestly, good for her! *big happy face*
I admit that I need to hang out with this group of friends more often because I miss them. And, they always have somehing going on and they all are good friends to each other. Even though I may have said some bad things about Emily I take them all back.
KTG and I talked about it and I understand now. It really is all Hurban's fault.
I made a wrong move when I surrendered my heart to this boy; he went for my friends and never had the fucking balls to tell me wht he felt. And, he mustve either felt bad or compelled to make it up to me when he held me that one night. As if to say Im sorry but, you know this cannot work. But, I misinterpretted it. He really was an asshole, I feel whole now. Now that I know the truth.
I know its too late to apologize for my nay-saying because Emoline doesnt like conflict or confrontation; I cant hurt her like that, or any worse than I have. What I can do is support her in her choice and hold her when she needs it. Im forever grateful for her support when I needed it the most; i owe her alot.
I hung out with KTG and Nicole Hernandez tonight; we went to the Oasis where we met lots of people I knew.
We ran into Ariel Pellet but, I dont think she recognized me, then a guy Sam dated (Francie's dumb Sam), and Ian and his ridiculously adorable girlfriend with an alkalin trio hoodie on (Ian had the best pair of tripp oxfords on. fuck, he has better style than I do...wtf) and then Mindy and her bf Bill showed up. He's one of hose bigger guys that you would see working at a comic book shop; but he was FULL of interesting things to say. I admitted to the table that it is MUCH better to have a group of people drinking coffee at the oasis instead of just one or two.
I made a careful observation in my head that there were three kinds of relationships around me. Mindy and Bill were at the early stage of being together, having fun and loving each other. KTG and Jake where theyve been together for a few years and are engaged, living together and bickering like old married ouples. They have rel live problems and they still love each other even thoughthey fight over stupid things. Emily and the German, a new relationship; while Emily ends an old dead one. Nicole who recently ended her relationship painfully; where Nick wants to be together but, they are too different to work. She said theyd be perfect friends and that she still cares for him. I hope we can still all hangout build fires, go to now abndoned parks and walk in the dark. And then, theres me undoubtedly single and hopelessly looking. 5 stages of relationships all at a table. Oh, Ian and Amber have been together just as long as Mindy and Bill.
New Years Resolutions:
Coffee and cigarette diet: a maybe.
Portion control: A go.
Eating a least one vegetable a meal: yay.
Drawing at least one drawing a day: already in effect.
-one in dirty sketchbook
-one in regular sketchbook
-one in comic sketchbook (drawing OR planning)
-optional ^^
Get a substantial job and save money
Try very hard in school and get at LEAST a C or better in all classes.
Listen to all cds Kyle burnt me: and share them.
Look for more music
Be more social and make new friends! Dont be shy: confidence does wonders!!!
Caffeinne addiction IS NOT BAD FOR YOU
Lose at least 30 pounds: slowly excercise (dog walking, walking to jogging with distance also increasing)
Keep MY DAMN ROOM CLEAN
Have more sleepovers
Embrace the young adult libido. it wont last forever
Take care of asthma, psoriasis, weight, peace of mind, and anger "Fake it till you feel it."
Plan better: make use of a planner/calendar **
Theres my list love.
Goodnight; I must draw and finish my cd ripping.
ps: I ws looking through Craigslist men seeking women and I came across this 24 year old man who seemed pretty substantial so I sent him an email back. I hope thats not too desperate of me... Hes from Rochelle, im not sure how far away that is though. Hopefully I can find a job and afford to have gas in my car... I have 20 bucks until I get a job... Mum owes me at least ten for me buying groceries and TP. Okay, I need to be up early for the job hunt tomorrow. I have to get a resume going for the Daily Times receptionist job and the Circulation Assistant for Reddick. Both of which I'd love! okay, nini!