I'm trying

[wapiko]

In a mere matter of weeks, everything has been reversed.

We're broken up again. He only wants to be friends for now. I knew things were moving too fast before. But I was happy. And he seemed happy. But he wasn't getting better. And I've relapsed.

I'm taking it so, so hard.

I'm trying not to pop too many pills.

I'm trying not to start an addiction.

I'm trying to remember my cat needs me.

I'm trying not to swallow all of my meds with a bottle of NyQuil.

I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't do anything but cry. I'm stuck.

We'll be together again someday. I know we will. We're perfect together. But I didn't think I'd have to do any more waiting after last time.