Just laying down a little meta
Hey dudes.
I thought it would be fun to come back to LJ and force myself to post by doing the advent calendar thing everyone else has started on.
I started to make a list.
And realized that I wasn't going to get anywhere without, like, three lists* x______x
I've gotten really bad at this, heh. ^_^;;; I don't seem to be capable of keeping up with the day-to-day fandom discussions anymore. And I feel bad, because some of you here on LJ are really cool people and I do wish I could follow all of you one hundred percent. But it seems like I just can't anymore. There are a lot of factors involved... I've blamed some of it on "if Alice-chan doesn't post in her blog then I lose the desire to blog myself", but it's not just that.
It's hard to read people's stories of being in Japan. It's difficult to hold on to memories and easier to just pack them away in a box. It's easy to ignore a lot of things and just play around on Twitter these days.
This isn't The Big Goodbye. I've thought so many times about doing that, but never could quite work up the narcissism it takes to storm off in a huff shouting "screw you, Zuka fandom!" I don't know if I could ever really say goodbye anyway. Fandom may have been tough on me, but a lot of you have held my hand through it all ;________; ♥ ♥ ♥
I wouldn't be surprised if some people have de-friended me though. Feel free, honestly I ought to cut down the old f-list myself and I'm baffled as to why people keep adding me even now. ^^;;;
I don't know what the point of this entry was. I watched Kisha to Koutei with muffin_song tonight and squealed and sniffled over Soragumi and all the lovely ladies I've spent so much time getting to know.
Dammit. I miss people, I miss a lot of things, it's just easier to ignore and suppress those feelings so I don't feel sad and miss everyone T_______T
*One for current Soragumisei, one for Sora OGs and one for everyone else ^_^;;
※ It'll probably be a long time yet before I stop doing Wiki updates, though. *laughs*
I thought it would be fun to come back to LJ and force myself to post by doing the advent calendar thing everyone else has started on.
I started to make a list.
And realized that I wasn't going to get anywhere without, like, three lists* x______x
I've gotten really bad at this, heh. ^_^;;; I don't seem to be capable of keeping up with the day-to-day fandom discussions anymore. And I feel bad, because some of you here on LJ are really cool people and I do wish I could follow all of you one hundred percent. But it seems like I just can't anymore. There are a lot of factors involved... I've blamed some of it on "if Alice-chan doesn't post in her blog then I lose the desire to blog myself", but it's not just that.
It's hard to read people's stories of being in Japan. It's difficult to hold on to memories and easier to just pack them away in a box. It's easy to ignore a lot of things and just play around on Twitter these days.
This isn't The Big Goodbye. I've thought so many times about doing that, but never could quite work up the narcissism it takes to storm off in a huff shouting "screw you, Zuka fandom!" I don't know if I could ever really say goodbye anyway. Fandom may have been tough on me, but a lot of you have held my hand through it all ;________; ♥ ♥ ♥
I wouldn't be surprised if some people have de-friended me though. Feel free, honestly I ought to cut down the old f-list myself and I'm baffled as to why people keep adding me even now. ^^;;;
I don't know what the point of this entry was. I watched Kisha to Koutei with muffin_song tonight and squealed and sniffled over Soragumi and all the lovely ladies I've spent so much time getting to know.
Dammit. I miss people, I miss a lot of things, it's just easier to ignore and suppress those feelings so I don't feel sad and miss everyone T_______T
*One for current Soragumisei, one for Sora OGs and one for everyone else ^_^;;
※ It'll probably be a long time yet before I stop doing Wiki updates, though. *laughs*