But somewhere I hope there is still light in the cosmos.
Thank you, Hankyuu.
Thank you so goddamn much for breaking the pattern of putting farewell words in the titles of shows, so that we would all be completely blindsided by Tani's retirement announcement.
I said that Soragumi was perfect and didn't need to be touched, and the Hankyuu Gods had to punish me for my hubris.
I don't know what else to say. I got the news while I was at work and came the closest I ever have to asking if I could leave early for reasons of emotional anxiety. I didn't need this. I can't deal with this on top of everything else.
I take back everything I said about Kiriyan and Yumiko and Yuuhi. I don't care if they're older and deserve it more. I don't want anyone to be the next Soragumi top but Tomu. I don't want my troupe to be shaken up again. It's too soon.
I just want to know why. Why, Tani? Why?
Thoughts of Ume-chan staying or going bring very, very mixed feelings. The thought of Ume-chan and Tomu together... It's strange, but I almost think it would be too hot to be legal. Ume-chan x Chie would be some kind of poetic justice, but I don't know if my heart could take it.
At least a few people seem to think that Ume-chan will retire too. My heart can't really take this either. It's such a goddamn waste. She so good. She so different from anyone else in Takarazuka...
Dictating these thoughts out loud somehow makes everything even more depressing than it already was.
I don't really want to talk to anyone tomorrow. I'm either going to hole up in my room and only watch happy-making things... or finally start writing letters.
Thank you so goddamn much for breaking the pattern of putting farewell words in the titles of shows, so that we would all be completely blindsided by Tani's retirement announcement.
I said that Soragumi was perfect and didn't need to be touched, and the Hankyuu Gods had to punish me for my hubris.
I don't know what else to say. I got the news while I was at work and came the closest I ever have to asking if I could leave early for reasons of emotional anxiety. I didn't need this. I can't deal with this on top of everything else.
I take back everything I said about Kiriyan and Yumiko and Yuuhi. I don't care if they're older and deserve it more. I don't want anyone to be the next Soragumi top but Tomu. I don't want my troupe to be shaken up again. It's too soon.
I just want to know why. Why, Tani? Why?
Thoughts of Ume-chan staying or going bring very, very mixed feelings. The thought of Ume-chan and Tomu together... It's strange, but I almost think it would be too hot to be legal. Ume-chan x Chie would be some kind of poetic justice, but I don't know if my heart could take it.
At least a few people seem to think that Ume-chan will retire too. My heart can't really take this either. It's such a goddamn waste. She so good. She so different from anyone else in Takarazuka...
Dictating these thoughts out loud somehow makes everything even more depressing than it already was.
I don't really want to talk to anyone tomorrow. I'm either going to hole up in my room and only watch happy-making things... or finally start writing letters.