It was really hard for me to write this post.
So I'm pretty sure -- I certainly hope -- that the newest discussion topic, "let's all prove that we're NOT too emotionally involved and upset by things", was not specifically aimed at anyone or meant to make them feel bad. It's quite enough to be feeling gloomy about retirements, without feeling bad for feeling bad on top of that.
Yes, I am one of those people who likes to be the first to report news and cries out in a loud voice and gets caught up in the drama of the moment. But in the end they don't all affect me in the same way, and I don't really cry over everyone, and it doesn't ruin my life or anything.
When I wrote letters to the six wonderful people retiring today, I tried my best to express my thanks to each of them for adding their own color and light to Soragumi, and my fervent wish that they all find happiness in whatever they do from here on...
But that doesn't mean I could completely hide the regret that they're leaving my beloved troupe. It doesn't mean I didn't get misty-eyed writing to them, or that I didn't shed tears typing that last paragraph just now.
...I don't even know how to finish this post properly.
I know they're all happy. For god's sake, I heard them all (minus Kiyao-chan) say so in interviews. I would be devastated if I felt they were leaving because they weren't happy.
But I'm going to miss them. I'm going to miss those faces in the foreground and background of Soragumi performances. Natsu and Ayu and Tacchin and Kimi-kun and Kasshii and Kiyao-chan. I'm going to miss them even if they show up on other stages or in other people's blogs.
It's senshuuraku. I'm allowed to be at least a little sad.
Yes, I am one of those people who likes to be the first to report news and cries out in a loud voice and gets caught up in the drama of the moment. But in the end they don't all affect me in the same way, and I don't really cry over everyone, and it doesn't ruin my life or anything.
When I wrote letters to the six wonderful people retiring today, I tried my best to express my thanks to each of them for adding their own color and light to Soragumi, and my fervent wish that they all find happiness in whatever they do from here on...
But that doesn't mean I could completely hide the regret that they're leaving my beloved troupe. It doesn't mean I didn't get misty-eyed writing to them, or that I didn't shed tears typing that last paragraph just now.
...I don't even know how to finish this post properly.
I know they're all happy. For god's sake, I heard them all (minus Kiyao-chan) say so in interviews. I would be devastated if I felt they were leaving because they weren't happy.
But I'm going to miss them. I'm going to miss those faces in the foreground and background of Soragumi performances. Natsu and Ayu and Tacchin and Kimi-kun and Kasshii and Kiyao-chan. I'm going to miss them even if they show up on other stages or in other people's blogs.
It's senshuuraku. I'm allowed to be at least a little sad.