7x03
MY THOUGHTS ARE A MUDDLE.
GOSH.
GOSH!
I really, really dug this episode and then the ending happened and I... still dig it, but in a sadder kind of way. So ummm lessee
I was surprised/a bit disappointed that they wrapped the hospital thing up so quickly! I had been anticipating some kind of glorious limping Dean and seizuring Sam battling their way out of a monster-infested hospital thing after last week’s cliffhanger, but OH WELL. The whole sequence of Bobby and Dean and gurney-Sam trying to get out of the hospital whilst the Leviathan (Leviathans?) were chasing them was surprisingly tense.
LOL HIDING OUT IN A FREAKING LOG CABIN TO RECOVER. (with Dean getting over invested in Mexican soap operas) LOOOL. Read more fanfic, TPTB, I dare you.
I am continuing to enjoy Sam’s crazy. As I always do. Though it was making me feel bad for Dean in that S4 handled his hell trauma so badly and now Sam’s is being handled so far pretty well (SO FAR eyes show suspiciously forever.) BUT UM, Sam anxiously fingering his hand scar (and hey, that was some pretty decent freshly healed wound makeup), I love it. Three episodes in a row maintaining plot lines and coherently following on from each other!! And it is rather making me worry about Sam's mental health - like, even more than is to be expected - I mean, seriously, what is he going to poke to ground himself in painful reality once his hand is fully healed?
Pie. Of course, pie, of course. And then Sam brings back cake. Was that when Dean started to get suspicious??
I REALLY LIKED AMY SO MUCH. (lol Amy Pond. Really, SPN? Really?) Especially wee!Amy. I just. Oh Sam, even at that age you were empathising with monsters (albeit without knowing they were monsters, in this case) and Amy was so sweet, poor kistune-y girl. It was a little bit trite, I guess, mirroring wee!Sam and wee!Amy that much, but this show has always had it anvils and I have always been a sucker for when there are parallels between the Winchesters and their prey.
And it is kind of retrospectively interesting that Sam has known and been sitting on all this time that his first kiss was with a monster who killed her own mother to save him. He must have been keeping an eye out for her ever since, just in case, and up till now spent what, fifteen years - and all of those morally grey areas they’ve faced in the mean time (MADISON! LENORE! ETC!) - knowing that Amy the Kitsune had managed to change. Both in that she’d managed to get out of the life that she’d hated, and later that the girl who was a monster wasn’t a monster. Man, no wonder he wanted out of hunting. He was fifteen or so in this episode, right? 1998. I have forgotten what year Sam was born in. But a couple of years later he started applying to colleges, I guess, and a few years later he got out.
Except, of course, he didn’t get out - out of hunting or out of being a freak. And neither did Amy. Because nothing in our lives is simple :(((((
Which brings me nicely onto FREAK. That word. That is such a loaded word in the SPN/Winchester mythos, by now. (And oh, oh, I am rewatching the last few scenes to refresh my brain thought, and Amy asking Sam to come with her. “We don’t have to be alone, we can be freaks together.” I would legit watch that spin-off.) And Dean being all “But this freak-?” and then they both have such immediate, visceral reactions. I WAS HAVING FLASHBACKS TO WHEN THE LEVEE BREAKS.
(And then I had flashbacks to that fucking voicemail and somewhere inside of me a little spark of ember that has long gone cold started to spark again with VOICEMAIL EMOTIONS. ALL OF THE VOICEMAIL EMOTIONS. Now I’m starting to actually wonder again if it might ever be brought up and dealt with. lol hopes.)
“I might be a freak, but that’s not the same as dangerous.”
“I didn’t say-”
“It’s okay. Say it.”
And then Dean said he trusts Sam and I basically reached fannish nirvana and started helicoptering around in my chair making gurgly noises. HOW WRONG I WAS. HOW WRONG. I WAS.
AND THEN DEAN WENT AND KILLED POOR AMY AND MY SOUL CRUMPLED UP INTO A LITTLE BALL AND CRIED IN A MANNER NOT DISIMILAR TO WHEN HE CHUCKED THE AMULET IN THE BIN.
Except whilst I will forever weep into my pillow over Dean discarding the amulet, this was a tricky one. I have always, always loved the moral greyness of the SPN world and it is lovely to have a return to that, albeit a return that punctured my fannish nirvana with a knife in Jewel Staite’s ribcage. Maybe Sam was right to spare her, knowing that she had a good heart and had only killed to save her family, which Sam and Dean would do again and again. Maybe Dean was right to end her, knowing that if she kills to save her son once she’ll kill to save him again and guys, guys, I don’t know if you’ve noticed this over the last six years, but the Winchester moral compass is not good or healthy or sane and it’s not a moral compass to follow.
WINCHESTERS: DEM CRAZIES.
Though of course Dean is a big fat hypocrite, given how many demon hosts they have killed over the years. And I do want to smack him in the face with so many rolled up newspapers for going being Sam’s back and lying to Sam when Sam tells him the truth (ALWAYS WITH THE LIES, WINCHESTERS. ALWAYS WITH THE LIIIIES) and telling Sam he trusts him when apparently he does not. gdit Dean when will you trust your baby brother? I swear, I could whack you with a spoon right now. So I am mad at Dean for this turn of events, but in an onboard with the storyline kind of way.
Remember in season one when the demon was punching Sam in the face and Dean shot the demon and killed the host without a second thought and then angsted about how he didn’t care that he’d killed a guy? Yes oh yes oh yes do I remember that.
So it seems like we are potentially in for another season of What’s Wrong With Sam? (with what looks like it could be a side order of Is Dean Going Crazy Too?) And I don’t even care that they have been telling this same story since season 2, I just do not care. I am so ready for it. Come at me, bro.
In conclusion, Bobby will never not look silly without a hat on.
GOSH.
GOSH!
I really, really dug this episode and then the ending happened and I... still dig it, but in a sadder kind of way. So ummm lessee
And it is kind of retrospectively interesting that Sam has known and been sitting on all this time that his first kiss was with a monster who killed her own mother to save him. He must have been keeping an eye out for her ever since, just in case, and up till now spent what, fifteen years - and all of those morally grey areas they’ve faced in the mean time (MADISON! LENORE! ETC!) - knowing that Amy the Kitsune had managed to change. Both in that she’d managed to get out of the life that she’d hated, and later that the girl who was a monster wasn’t a monster. Man, no wonder he wanted out of hunting. He was fifteen or so in this episode, right? 1998. I have forgotten what year Sam was born in. But a couple of years later he started applying to colleges, I guess, and a few years later he got out.
Except, of course, he didn’t get out - out of hunting or out of being a freak. And neither did Amy. Because nothing in our lives is simple :(((((
(And then I had flashbacks to that fucking voicemail and somewhere inside of me a little spark of ember that has long gone cold started to spark again with VOICEMAIL EMOTIONS. ALL OF THE VOICEMAIL EMOTIONS. Now I’m starting to actually wonder again if it might ever be brought up and dealt with. lol hopes.)
“I might be a freak, but that’s not the same as dangerous.”
“I didn’t say-”
“It’s okay. Say it.”
WINCHESTERS: DEM CRAZIES.
Though of course Dean is a big fat hypocrite, given how many demon hosts they have killed over the years. And I do want to smack him in the face with so many rolled up newspapers for going being Sam’s back and lying to Sam when Sam tells him the truth (ALWAYS WITH THE LIES, WINCHESTERS. ALWAYS WITH THE LIIIIES) and telling Sam he trusts him when apparently he does not. gdit Dean when will you trust your baby brother? I swear, I could whack you with a spoon right now. So I am mad at Dean for this turn of events, but in an onboard with the storyline kind of way.