A small step forward

[wantstheroad]

To say it was another too warm day would be an understatement, because it seemed this summer that all their days were too warm. Which had lead Dana and Joe to spending more time out in their private area, enjoying the gazebo and the river to their fullest. He's not sure what day they hadn't spent out here in the afternoons at least after they'd

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[siswinchester]

It wasn't that she believed Joe would ever purposefully hurt her, again, but it was more...that feeling of that night. She was afraid it would come back and overwhelm her if she were to be that intimate with him again. The fear and hurt and feeling of being used. She hadn't liked any of it.

But things were much different now and she wanted to try for him. For his patience with her and for his love. She'd given over her heart to him which she had been dutifully clutching close to her for so long, he had all of her. Well, almost all of her. Not the feel of her body as he desired in the middle of the night.

The blaze in his now dark blue eyes showed her just how hungry for her he was. She'd seen it often enough, never quelled by her, never aided or satisfied.

Touching it. She could...she could do that. It would not harm her if she simply touched it. So with a nod, she was looking down once more at that throbbing hard erection in his grasp, her small hand reaching out and a finger gently pulling down the length of him from tip to base.

"It's...like satin over steel." She murmurs, almost wondrously. Soft and yet so hard at the same time.

[wantstheroad]

He's hoping that when they do become intimate again, that he can make that night special. Candles, a good wine, and a slow tease of her body before they're together. To make it as special as that first night should have been. To show her that it didn't have to hurt, or for her to have to be scared of him or a night with him. But that was still ways off, he knew. Right now, just the prospect of her touching him made him twitch a little more.

And yes, things were different now. He loved her, for her as a wonderful woman. And they knew each other now. She knew the man he was, the man he continuously tried to be. He cherished that she'd given him her heart, and had done all in his power to be the man worthy of her heart as well, and to keep it safe for her. To keep her happy and well pleased.

For as hungry as he was for her, he still wouldn't take her. He wanted her willing, wanted her to want him because she wanted him. Not because he needed her.

And then she was touching him and his eyes fluttered as he made a low sound in his throat. Even that little touch did so much for him, for his hips that shifted, wanting more of that soft touch. "Yes... you always make it so hard...

[siswinchester]

Right now, Dana was still in a place where she believed it to not be possible to ever lay with him again. That they could only carry on as they had been, perhaps with the added effort of her touching him. But sex...

If he ever broke her heart, Dana would be a broken woman, she knew it completely. It had taken a lot to give him her heart to begin with. Everything was in Joe's hands, in his power, and she had no control over it.

Dana couldn't help the shiver at Joe's reaction to her touch, her eyes flickering to his face as he made that low, all male sound that did something strange to her. There was a swarm of butterflies running wild in her belly, nervous as she was to be touching him, but the excitement was kicking back in once more. "...do I?" She knew this of course, seen evidence of his hard arousal often, felt it as he held her after pleasing her.

Still biting her lip, she shifted her body in even closer, tracing her finger up and down lazily along the soft underside of his straining cock, loving the smooth feel of him.

[wantstheroad]

Right now, Joe was thinking that if she helped touch him to bring him release, he was a lucky man. While yes, he had occasionally thought about having sex with her, and he did know that he wanted to make the night exceptionally special, he had no planned date for it. Just wishful thinking on his end.

He would never break her heart. He'd already broken her enough and he refused to break her any farther. He wanted to do right by her, to make her the happiest woman in the land, maybe even in the world.

There's no hiding any reaction from her. He leaned back on the bed as she inched closer to him, watched him all the more. A tension ran through him, keeping his muscles tight and and manhood quivering some as he nodded. "Yes... Even the simple things you do, the way you bend over to pick up a book..."

His hips arch a little as she traces her finger along him, groaning low as she teased him, explored him. He loved the feel of her finger on him, it felt so good, the best, really. And the touch earned a low sound from his throat. "You feel so good... "

[siswinchester]

It hadn't helped much with her confidence when Rachel had visited them. Her obvious bragging about being Joe's first woman to lay with, with how she had tried to become his mistress, spoke that women could enjoy being with a man in that way, but Dana was incapable of it. She was faulty and yet he still wanted her. It hurt to know, especially after he had brought her to the highs of pleasure and she never made a move to help with his own. She was selfish and unworthy of his efforts.

But it was heady to watch him react to her touch so, satisfying to make him happy for once. His heavy manhood jumped under her touch, more of her fingers dancing down his side, dragging up and pulling through that sticky beaded moisture at the head of his cock.

"Am I...does it feel good Joe?" She asks hesitantly, voice a bit airy and breathless as she continued to touch him.

[wantstheroad]

He'd argue that it should help her confidence. He'd taken insult for her when Rachel had tried to become Mistress, had tried to insinuate that Dana couldn't please him. Because to him, Dana pleased him more than any woman ever had. She made him smile, made him laugh, enjoy life all the more. He'd fallen in love with the woman by his side for her smile, her wit, the conversations they'd had together. And she wasn't faulty, she was broken and it was his fault. And yes, he did still want her. He would always want her. And she was allowed to be selfish some after his transgressions, to let him please her and never help until she was ready.

And his waiting had brought them here. To her wanting of her own accord to touch him. To get over those fears that still plagued her.

The way his hips jerk slightly as he gives another groan at the way her fingers play along him should help be answer enough on how it feels. She feels amazing, if teasingly infuriating at the same time. He wanted more, wanted her to stroke him. But he also knew she needed to go slow, that he had to try to reign in his wants right now.

"You feel... amazing, Dana...so amazing," he answered with a panted breath. His eyes were hooded as he watched her and his hand slowly guided her smaller hand to grip him if she lets him, how to stroke him.

[siswinchester]

Dana would be glad to hear it, to know that pleasing him had not to do with giving physical pleasure. Though he did that in spades for her on top of being the wonderful man he was to her now. What's more, Dana would gladly go the rest of her life with never having to face his manhood again or being intimate like that with him again if she could. But she knew, deep down, that that life would never be a fully happy one for Joe.

And so she does want to touch and look at him of her own accord, fight her demons and her fears that haunted her still.

His sounds are so...so amazing. It sends thrills down her spine and makes moisture pool between her thighs. Pupils blown dark, she finally releases her lip from teeth, licking her lower lip of the indents she's left in the flesh.

Panting herself, she let's him guide her hand, small and lithe as she curls her fingers around his rigid and pulsing length, slowly pumping down over him.

[wantstheroad]

He wasn't so shallow as to think that pleasure only came from the physical. She gave him emotional and mental pleasure in spades and he did love it. Love her for it. And she could give it up so easily because she didn't know how good it could be. Yes, he knew how good pleasures of the physical could be because of other women, but he wanted none but her if he was to have that again. And he would miss it, feel like they weren't complete without it. But he was trying not to push her, to give her time and space to slowly get to where she needed to be to face it.

He's hoping that the more she explores him with hand, and maybe later with mouth, the more it will help to sooth the fears and demons that still linger in her mind.

He'll be very happy to help her with that pooling pleasure in her after she's had her fill of exploring him, of helping him. He loves the taste of her, the sounds of her. And that's also why he's never asked her to help him. He doesn't please her to gain anything but her happiness, her pleasure for the sake of her pleasure.

As she seems to be getting it his hand will fall away so she is touching him all on his own, hips rocking with that slow pace that she's setting as he groans low. His one hand will slide around her to draw her closer for a kiss as fingers tease along her side gently.

[siswinchester]

At one time Dana had been sure that's the only pleasure Joe had wanted from her. He'd thrown her down and used her and look at where that had taken her. How long it had taken her to even get here. Maybe things would have gone easier if he hadn't done what he had, but there was no fixing the past.

And she's hoping that as well. She...she wants to be close to her husband. She wants him to be happy in every way she can manage. To not disappoint him by keeping his body at arms length while still allowing him to pleasure her day in and day out.

The way his hips rock, the sound he makes, it's all very...erotic. Sensual as she watches his muscled body stretch out along the bed and pillows, his cock hard and thick and hot as she stroked up and down, her grip tightening a fraction.

[wantstheroad]

Truth be told, he was certain things would have gone easier if he'd let her wait and get to know him before they'd become intimate. But much as he wanted to, he couldn't take back what he'd done to her. All he could do is try to heal the pain he'd caused over time.

He would say they are close. He would already do anything for her, and anything to protect her. And he's happy in almost every way. There's not a disappointment in her keeping him at arms length so much as a pain. That she still fears him, because of the monster he'd been their first night.

The octave lowers a fraction as she tightens her grip, hips rocking a little faster, trying to encourage that hand to move faster as she strokes him. He nips at her jaw as he makes those low sounds, body writhing slightly at the pleasure. He's not sure how long he'll last right now, with having her touch finally after all these months. "Dana... so good..."

[siswinchester]

Dana wished so much to not fear him. Of having him naked and above her. To feel or see his cock and instinctively flinch. Every inch of Joe was gloriously muscled and tanned and beautiful. Even the very thing she feared, now that she had looked at it, was beautiful.

As his hips begin to rock faster, she takes that as a sign to move her hand at a quicker pace, pumping up and down around him now at his encouragement. Making a soft sound as his teeth nipped at her jaw, she turned her head, catching him in a deep kiss, needing the contact to ground her and her still slightly frazzled nerves about the new situation. "Just want to please you Joe..."

[wantstheroad]

Well, if it would help any of her fears, she could always be on top their first time. Control how fast or slow they went, how fast or slow her body took him in as she got used to him. And she'd be able to see all of him as they both took pleasure in her laying with him. All of this muscled, tanned body was hers to tease and play with as she wanted, really.

His hips rock with a low, panted breath before she claims his mouth. He melts under her, hips still keeping time with her hand as he feels his pleasure mount. His mouth opens to allow her tongue access if she wants to slip it into his mouth and his hand slides up into her hair to grip it at the nape of her neck. "You do...gods you do...Dana..." His words are breathier, almost close now.

[siswinchester]

Perhaps. If they ever got there. She'd need guidance and patience. And above all, she needed his love.

Moaning out low into his mouth, her tongue eagerly accepted entrance into his hot mouth, snaking in and twining with his own as she felt him continue to thrust himself up through the grip of her hand. He pulsed almost impossibly harder in her grip and she gasped as he grasped her hair, running her thumb over his leaking slit and biting at his lower lip gently.

[wantstheroad]

She had his love, and he thinks that he has proven rather well that she also had his patience. Letting her choose when she was ready. And he would go as slow as she needed always, guiding her with a gentle hand.

His own tongue teased and rubbed against hers, as they kissed. All his sounds were now fed to her as his hips moved with her hand, though his eyes shut close when her thumb slide over the slit, smearing his stickiness. There's a lower sound as his hips move just a little faster and he nips back at her lower lip just as gently. "Close... Dana..."

[siswinchester]

Dana was definitely wet, aroused and aching for Joe the longer he panted and groaned out beneath her. Panting into his mouth, she was slipping her tongue back in, as if trying to devour him as she moved her hand to match his pace, squeezing tighter and rubbing her breasts against his side.

"Joe..."

[wantstheroad]

Hearing her say his name like that was dizzying for him, he could feel it straight down his spine to his throbbing manhood. And it's not long after her hand squeezes him tighter that he's arching as he cries out into her mouth as she devours him. He pulses as he spills sharply over her hand, hot and sticky and god so good.

"DANA!"