but then i go and blow it

[wantsomej9lovin]

after posting the previous entry i reflected on how annoying i am. here i am talking about how great life is and how it is what you make of it and i am making it out to be amazing... yet how the fuck can i sit here and be so happy with life when i am aware of the sufferings of those around the world. ive found myself thinking all together too domestically and am really annoyed. i mean i talk about how great life is but then i look not too far away at my mother wehre her life is a living hell. she has been in philadelphia since the beginning of november taking care of her mother who is dying in a horrible way.
so i guess i should say that my life is great.. but then again i get mad at myself for saying that because i shouldnt feel so great when i know that others are suffering. it seems almost selfish to be caught up in the wonder that is myh sheltered life when i am at least aware that not everyone else is expirencing what i am. im not jsut talking about all u emo sons of bitches living here in sarasota. "oh im so poor. im so depressed. my life sucks.." man get off ur ass and make something of yourself. life could be so much worse. i hate selfishness and that to me is just about as bad as it gets

so the moral of the story is to quit feeling so bad for yourself and help out those who need it.
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