Here I am.

[wanton_bliss]

I enjoy how I have mysteriously become the Man in Charge despite being the junior-most engineer. For those keeping track, it's almost eight and I am all about approving bug check-ins and convincing my manager to do what's right rather than taking the easy way out (management loves the "workaround"... this no doubt is one of the reasons why we have

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[greywanderer]

so did you like him or not? want to see him again? you didn't seem to interested in him as more than a friend. my advice, don't force anything if it's not happening.

as for the obsessing over your last goodbye to him, sounds like something I'd do (the obsessing that is). what were you supposed to do? blow him right there by the door? if you just felt like giving him a peck, then that's what you do. not that I'm an expert on dating. the whole thing sounds like more trouble than it's worth. better off just hitting on your friends until they consent to sleep with you. :-)

um, yeah.

All good questions.

[wanton_bliss]

Were you looking for answers? I don't know that I have them. Occasionally, my feelings are completely ambiguous.

Do I like him? He's interesting, entertaining, and comfortable.

Do I like him? Not in that sense. Not at this time. Sometimes these things surprise or sneak up on you. I wasn't even interested in J for the first 5 years that I knew him. Then he read me this short story he wrote and it all fell together.

Do I want to see him again? I want a boyfriend. I am making an effort to find him.

What I suppose to blow him there by the door? I don't know... Maybe just grab his ass.

I'm tired of hitting on my friends and perpetually waiting for consent that never comes, by the way. Seeking consent. Sounding desperate. Tick tock.

Re: All good questions.

[greywanderer]

I know what you're saying. I'm just thinking that he lives far away. Usually, (and this is a guess since it doesn't happen to me) don't two people fall in love after spending a lot of time together? Blah, ignore me. I'm a pessimist.

Hey...

[wanton_bliss]

... Yeah, everyone who is close by seems to be mysteriously heterosexual. If you had a someone in mind, please let me know.

And no, I could never ignore you.

[greywanderer]

do you ever go to bed on time? :-) and you blame me. :-P

hey, if I had the slightest clue about how to get a boyfriend, I'd have one.

[herbaliser]

Everyone just needs to move to Seattle. I wasn't even trying and I met five single guys the other day.

[greywanderer]

If I had a job lined up there, I would. But I'm never again moving somewhere without having a job first. I was just looking at my credit card balance. :shudder: Find me a job, and I'll go. :-)

[herbaliser]

You mean you don't want to sell motorcycles?

[greywanderer]

that's still a negatory little buddy.

It's too far.

[wanton_bliss]

All my black furniture was chipped moving from California back to the East Coast a year ago. Through clever application of black fingernail polish I have somewhat restored it. But I fear it could not survive another trip.

[dfrahlic]

You know perfectly well how to get a boyfriend. You're just afraid of having one. One of the first steps is actually showing an interest in hanging out with people though. :-P

[greywanderer]

once again I say to thee, yo mamma.

Re: All good questions.

[gareon]

its goofy but honestly the harder you look the more elusive mr. right becomes.

Hrmph.

[wanton_bliss]

How about Mr. Right-Now?

Re: Hrmph.

[gareon]

Mr. Right Now is a shape shifter. He metamorphosizes into Mr. Gotta Go Sorry For the Wet Spot.

And you're far too gorgeous and clever for that.

Desperate? (but not serious)

[dfrahlic]

You don't sound desperate. You sound chary, which, you should be. All of the insecurities you described are pretty much well-founded. I've discovered jumping into a relationship just because you want one usually warrants more plight and heartache than the temporary vexation of being lonely until the right one comes along.