2am meloncholy
Popped over to DA as I haven't logged in there in some time, had a nosey about, cleared out my enormous stack of new mails and got to reading some from an ex-girlfriend I did not treat in any way well enough. I used her as a stop-gap to get over someone who I just ended up getting back with anyway. (then breaking up with again...but that's not where this is going)
Poked about looking at her new deviations, her art is still amazing and improving. Did a bit of Facebook stalking, she's happy with the same guy she's been with for a few years now. I am pleased she is doing well, she deserves to be happy. We left things on bad terms but she made me happy for a time, she definitely made me laugh and she gave me the confidence in myself I thought I'd lost. I never thanked her.
I got to realising, there's not a single relationship in my life that I am happy with the ending of. Not just romantic ones, friendships also, I tend to drift from people if I don't see them regularly, then forget about them completely. I have a great group of friends now, but there's almost no-one from my past I could call up in the morning and get a beer with.
And I'm done, just had to get that out.
Poked about looking at her new deviations, her art is still amazing and improving. Did a bit of Facebook stalking, she's happy with the same guy she's been with for a few years now. I am pleased she is doing well, she deserves to be happy. We left things on bad terms but she made me happy for a time, she definitely made me laugh and she gave me the confidence in myself I thought I'd lost. I never thanked her.
I got to realising, there's not a single relationship in my life that I am happy with the ending of. Not just romantic ones, friendships also, I tend to drift from people if I don't see them regularly, then forget about them completely. I have a great group of friends now, but there's almost no-one from my past I could call up in the morning and get a beer with.
And I'm done, just had to get that out.