.....hmm.....
Merry Xmas to those of u who celebrate it! Ive had a long day, Im so tired, actually I had kinda a life altering expierence today...more on that later...im to tired and to ...blah to talk about it...
I feel so weak right now...
I wanna cry...
what i really want is to just somewhere and stare into space and just silently think about everything on my mind right now...cuz everything is going on in the background and its not working... i need my mind to be clear...im mentally and physically exhausted...
my cuzin dave helped me to come to an important conclusion...
i dont just wanna be by myself...i want someone to be with me...and not just anyone...one specail person...i kno who he is...i just want him to hold me and just sit with me for a while...thats all i want...but dave also helped me realize that, thats fantasy not reality. i need to learn how to seperate the both. You kno when hes not being a jackass (no offense dave, u kno ilu sooo much but we do but heads sometimes) he gives really good advice....
...newho...im lonely and overwhelmed i just want a hug....
...u kno who u r...i need a hug from u when ur done celebrating xmas ive been really good not calling and ruining ur holiday so u come to me. plz?
to lazy 4 a song of the day,....maybe tommorow or later...
I feel so weak right now...
I wanna cry...
what i really want is to just somewhere and stare into space and just silently think about everything on my mind right now...cuz everything is going on in the background and its not working... i need my mind to be clear...im mentally and physically exhausted...
my cuzin dave helped me to come to an important conclusion...
i dont just wanna be by myself...i want someone to be with me...and not just anyone...one specail person...i kno who he is...i just want him to hold me and just sit with me for a while...thats all i want...but dave also helped me realize that, thats fantasy not reality. i need to learn how to seperate the both. You kno when hes not being a jackass (no offense dave, u kno ilu sooo much but we do but heads sometimes) he gives really good advice....
...newho...im lonely and overwhelmed i just want a hug....
...u kno who u r...i need a hug from u when ur done celebrating xmas ive been really good not calling and ruining ur holiday so u come to me. plz?
to lazy 4 a song of the day,....maybe tommorow or later...