whats been going on.
my life is actually working out for me for once.
I'm actually happy for a change.
1. I almost cried my eyes out the other day because he told me he would have had to leave in February instead of June...but it turned out not be true. I wonder if I can handle it in June anyways. 7 weeks is a long time to be apart. but I told him I'd wait for him and that was no lie. and when he finally ships out...he better come back to me.
2. My parents found out I'm having sex...in a comical way. I really don't care to write how. Its the most awkward conversation to have. Yeah I'm 20...but its still weird especially if your parents bring it up in the middle of dinner at Chile's. They are surprisingly not angry at all. Weirded out is probably a good word. I think they have changed alot sense they have been going to the club...it lightened them up a whole lot. I used to freak out about them going there...but if they had not have gone...I would have never met Bobby.
3. School is School. not much I can say other than I hate physics...but religious studies is kick ass.
4. he is perfect. and he doesn't understand why. he thinks he is worthless...but he can't see what I see in him. I'm glad I can help him get his life on track. i can do that for him sense he has done so much for me already. He has shown me that not all guys are fuckheads and that some of them can be really sweet. He has shown me that I actually deserve love. Its love. I know its way soon. but just look at us and you will see it.
5. sometimes I want nothing more than to be your friend like we were in high school. but I know it can't be that way. and sometimes I want nothing more than to forget you. I hope you understand why.
6. you are my best friend. no doubts about that. and we really are the "jokers". I can't wait till b-town. we are gonna rock that town.
7. I wish you two had not have faded from my life. I really don't understand the attitude you give me. so what nothing happened in between us does it really matter? you have a girlfriend now and I have a boyfriend. can't we still be friends? I'd like to be. and you I'm sorry for not being there for you. I can tell you are having a tough time. you can always call me or message me. I'm all ears. I'm here for you.
we all change. its life.
I've changed in so many ways.
I'm bolder
and happier.
I 'm glad life gave me this second chance...I'm not gonna fuck it up this time.
I'm actually happy for a change.
1. I almost cried my eyes out the other day because he told me he would have had to leave in February instead of June...but it turned out not be true. I wonder if I can handle it in June anyways. 7 weeks is a long time to be apart. but I told him I'd wait for him and that was no lie. and when he finally ships out...he better come back to me.
2. My parents found out I'm having sex...in a comical way. I really don't care to write how. Its the most awkward conversation to have. Yeah I'm 20...but its still weird especially if your parents bring it up in the middle of dinner at Chile's. They are surprisingly not angry at all. Weirded out is probably a good word. I think they have changed alot sense they have been going to the club...it lightened them up a whole lot. I used to freak out about them going there...but if they had not have gone...I would have never met Bobby.
3. School is School. not much I can say other than I hate physics...but religious studies is kick ass.
4. he is perfect. and he doesn't understand why. he thinks he is worthless...but he can't see what I see in him. I'm glad I can help him get his life on track. i can do that for him sense he has done so much for me already. He has shown me that not all guys are fuckheads and that some of them can be really sweet. He has shown me that I actually deserve love. Its love. I know its way soon. but just look at us and you will see it.
5. sometimes I want nothing more than to be your friend like we were in high school. but I know it can't be that way. and sometimes I want nothing more than to forget you. I hope you understand why.
6. you are my best friend. no doubts about that. and we really are the "jokers". I can't wait till b-town. we are gonna rock that town.
7. I wish you two had not have faded from my life. I really don't understand the attitude you give me. so what nothing happened in between us does it really matter? you have a girlfriend now and I have a boyfriend. can't we still be friends? I'd like to be. and you I'm sorry for not being there for you. I can tell you are having a tough time. you can always call me or message me. I'm all ears. I'm here for you.
we all change. its life.
I've changed in so many ways.
I'm bolder
and happier.
I 'm glad life gave me this second chance...I'm not gonna fuck it up this time.