and i don't have nothing but your heartbeat in my head.
my computer is acting real dumb. so, I better make this quick.
last night, I went to work- sunny and I had a blast. i think it was good.NO BOYS ALLOWED! christine is being all wierd with me, which.. Idunno. whatever. i didn't do anything. Mike came into the store last night, that was wierd. we actually talked to eachother and it wasn't totally wierd. it was nice. I'm almost certain sunny thinks i still like him, which.. i don't think I do. I dunno. I just miss hanging out with him- he's a lot of fun. we talked about blink and whatnot- then, Sunny had said something about girlfriends. and I was like ' having a girlfriend never stopped me before' real loud. and, he was like ' why do you gotta say stuff like that.. hahahah but it was funny' so, it's kind of like a joke now- which is cool, it's not all wierd to talk about. I mean, we don't talk about it.. but you know. it's funny that he still winks at me the same way, and still looks at me with adoring eyes. and, I can't help but look at him and do the same. I liked seeing him- and, i'm glad he's doing okay.
I found out that Nike is doing Coke now. I feel really bad about this, and I wish I could help him. but he's beyond repair. my heart goes out to him, and I know that if someday he really needs me. I'll be there to help him. that' sjust how i am, I can;'t say ' fuck you.. I dont care' there is still a place in my heart for him, he never did anything bad to me, and we left on good terms. so, as far as i'm concerned there is no bad taste in my mouth with him. except for what he's doing to himself. not good.
I miss ricky, I hope that when school starts- we'll get back into a groove again. I wonder if he still thinks of me as his best friend, not only because of his girlfriend.. but in general. I think I'll ask someday. anyway I must be off, I have to find out how much it is to tint my windows!
xoxoxo
last night, I went to work- sunny and I had a blast. i think it was good.NO BOYS ALLOWED! christine is being all wierd with me, which.. Idunno. whatever. i didn't do anything. Mike came into the store last night, that was wierd. we actually talked to eachother and it wasn't totally wierd. it was nice. I'm almost certain sunny thinks i still like him, which.. i don't think I do. I dunno. I just miss hanging out with him- he's a lot of fun. we talked about blink and whatnot- then, Sunny had said something about girlfriends. and I was like ' having a girlfriend never stopped me before' real loud. and, he was like ' why do you gotta say stuff like that.. hahahah but it was funny' so, it's kind of like a joke now- which is cool, it's not all wierd to talk about. I mean, we don't talk about it.. but you know. it's funny that he still winks at me the same way, and still looks at me with adoring eyes. and, I can't help but look at him and do the same. I liked seeing him- and, i'm glad he's doing okay.
I found out that Nike is doing Coke now. I feel really bad about this, and I wish I could help him. but he's beyond repair. my heart goes out to him, and I know that if someday he really needs me. I'll be there to help him. that' sjust how i am, I can;'t say ' fuck you.. I dont care' there is still a place in my heart for him, he never did anything bad to me, and we left on good terms. so, as far as i'm concerned there is no bad taste in my mouth with him. except for what he's doing to himself. not good.
I miss ricky, I hope that when school starts- we'll get back into a groove again. I wonder if he still thinks of me as his best friend, not only because of his girlfriend.. but in general. I think I'll ask someday. anyway I must be off, I have to find out how much it is to tint my windows!
xoxoxo