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so it definitely has been forever since i actually wrote a decent update on this thing..for some reason my text disappeared and my lj was all screwed up but thank god kristen fixed it for me :). anyway school has been quite stressful but all i keep thinking about is how in exactly a month from today i will be heading home for summer, that sounds amazing. last week i had my spring break and it was incredible. not only was my birthday during it but i saw RENT for the first time and it was absoultely incredible & gave me the chills the entire time, clearly i bought the soundtrack and i was really happy my roommate Ang came home with me for the first four days of spring break. Also, i spent the entire week with my beautiful boyfriend. of course im going to elaborate on how wonderful he is.. alright so clearly if you've read any previous entry ive ever wrote on this thing you'd know how ive always gotten hurt in the many serious relationships i have blindly gotten myself involved in. every boyfriend i have had with the exception of one has cheated on me and left me thinking that everything was my fault and basically making me so terribly afraid of committment that i thought i'd never find love and never let my guard down to let anyone in, even if i thought it was worth it.. so my point.. i met Rob.. for lack of a better term, he makes everyone look like shit. he's absolutely the most perfect match for me possible, he treats me like i am a princess and i honestly feel like i dont deserve to be treated as well as he treats me. he makes me feel like i am so special, like im on top of the world. everytime i talk to him i still get butterflies as if it was the first time i ever heard his voice. and not to be cheesy but the first time i kissed him i got that feeling, the feeling that everyone hopes they will feel when they kiss the person that they have always dreamed about. the way he makes me feel is unlike anything ive ever known and everything ive always wanted and needed. for once im not afraid, for once i feel safe and secure in a relationship honestly knowing that i wont get hurt, granted we've been dating for almost two months now and some people might think its crazy for me to think this way but honestly if you had any idea the way we make each other feel and the level that we are on with each other you would never think that we have only been dating for that long. i've been waiting for him my whole life and i know that he's the only one i'll ever need, i know that for once i wont let stupid fears that i used to always have in the back of my mind let me ruin this because honestly i cant imagine how i ever lived without him and i dont ever want to. over spring break we went to the park together and went on the swings and took cute pics and just had so much fun enjoying each other's company, its crazy but when i look into his eyes i see someone that will always be there for me and never do anything to hurt me, ive never had that before, its perfect. he's going to be here on saturday for the entire week for his spring break and i am truly ecstatic, i never honestly thought that long distance relationships could work especially because what ive gone through in the past with guys that have lived five minutes away from me, but with him i know nothing, absolutely nothing could ruin this and if anything/anyone tried, we're too strong to let it stop us. we know what we have and we know we are in love and we can actually picture always being together. i'm a firm believer that everyone will find the love of their life, their true soulmate, the one they will always spend their life with even though what ive been through would make you think i wouldnt think that way but ive never been a cynical person. i've found that person for me and i wont ever let him go. :)