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Today has not been a good day at all. Except it was beatiful. I set my alarm at 6 and guess what? It never went off. So I woke up around 9:30 ish which is way too late for church. Why my parents didn't wake me up? I have no idea. Then right when I get down stairs my Mom starts ragging on me. Blah Blah Blah. Why were you laughing last night as I told you to get to bed (well Mom I was kind of up because I was making you a mix for mother's day). Don't do this, do this. Blah Blah Blah. This went on all morning. Then she said something that made my whole day just ruined. I will not forget it. I will shove it in her face when it becomes untrue. Then well I gave her, her gift. A bear that sings L.O.V.E, a mix, and a redish orangish rose. Then we left for my grandparents. My Papa is so incredibly depressed. My Nana is the same as ever. My Papa is getting old. I don't want him to leave. I can't have him leave. But I relize that one day it will happen. More than ever I just want to hold on. To never let go. But I can't do that... All I want is to crawl up inside my bed and die. Go away from this hurt, this pain.