Rant Part 2: Matthew and Mary
And some other thoughts I have been pondering since I saw the new promo today!
Obviously I loved and I am very excited to see the Christmas special, but honestly, I'm confused, and I really just feel for Mary. The shipper part of me wants her with Matthew, but the rational, everyday part of me is screaming that that doesn't exist and it is silly to look at tv programmes and believe that sort of thing when in all likelihood you will end up alone, or perhaps in marriage with someone like Carlisle. I guess this just affects me so much because I am exactly like Mary in so many ways.
I don't know. Maybe I sound melodramatic, but I've started to realise how dangerous it is to idealise a vision of something that is never going to happen. To quote Albus Dumbledore, 'It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live'. Sometimes you just have to concentrate on NOT feeling lonely and make sure you are busy. I gave my sister some advice the other day which I should really follows myself. She is upset about a boy, and I told her that she can't rely on someone else to make her happy. I try to make my life as busy as possibly, but maybe I need to listen to myself and just forget a bit more.
Perhaps I will feel differently after some good sleep and time at home Maybe I just need time to myself and to relax as things have been so stressful.
Obviously I loved and I am very excited to see the Christmas special, but honestly, I'm confused, and I really just feel for Mary. The shipper part of me wants her with Matthew, but the rational, everyday part of me is screaming that that doesn't exist and it is silly to look at tv programmes and believe that sort of thing when in all likelihood you will end up alone, or perhaps in marriage with someone like Carlisle. I guess this just affects me so much because I am exactly like Mary in so many ways.
I don't know. Maybe I sound melodramatic, but I've started to realise how dangerous it is to idealise a vision of something that is never going to happen. To quote Albus Dumbledore, 'It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live'. Sometimes you just have to concentrate on NOT feeling lonely and make sure you are busy. I gave my sister some advice the other day which I should really follows myself. She is upset about a boy, and I told her that she can't rely on someone else to make her happy. I try to make my life as busy as possibly, but maybe I need to listen to myself and just forget a bit more.
Perhaps I will feel differently after some good sleep and time at home Maybe I just need time to myself and to relax as things have been so stressful.