the future
so yeah its been too long and no one is going to read or will they i don't really know. anyways i just got back from florida and im just saying that within 6 months i will be moving down there to live. im serious.......with everything from school, to the fact im going no where here, my brother just bought a townhouse down there and wants me to move in 400 a month (i mean come on NTO BAD) i will be 21 and like my rents and steve said, it will be a new start for me a REALLY new start for me. ive got to get my act together PEOPLE MY ACT MY ACT........ so yeah im not saying anything to anyone excapt amanda and gary cause it isn't exactly 100% yet im just letting them know how things are working out (bonnie if you're reading this, i know how i felt when you told me you were leaving for the airforce, and if you felt the way i felt when you told me, i can't tell you yet until its directly official on paper) im probably going to be quitting school up here to work full time to earn some dough. there is a list i need to do before going or even can think about going......lose weight, earn and save money, get everything caughtup with westfield state, and not end up a failure like how i feel my parents think of me (not literally cuase i know they love me to death, but still i know there's still a little put down they feel) my problem is my friends up here, they mean too much to me, but this is something i must do for myself. im writing in this livejournal cuase i can't really talk to people about it other than my rents and bros at least for now, so im using livejournal as my thoughts of what to say, im scared of the future, what if i fail again? what if i end up coming back up here having learnt nothing? i guess thats what is exciting about it too. and quite honestly, this place where i would live, its paradise abosolute paradise words cannot describe it at all. and it would be a nice place for friends to come down for theweekend or something, but they would need to be at least 21 cause pretty much a lot of the cool shit is for 21+ neways thats it......................