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I don't really know what to say but I know I'm going crazy with the not saying it.
I'm this big mess of words and memories and feelings and none of it matches together to a cohesive image in any way.
There's fires again.
For those of you who are not from the Okanagan, some background:
There was a fire in 2003 that ate a bunch of houses up in the mission and we got evacuated for five days.
The Okanagan valley is considered a semi-arid desert and as such we always lack in the precipitation department pretty heavily over the summer, and this summer is drier than most.
There's currently three fires burning on the opposite side of the lake from Kelowna.
Now, I'm a bit of a firebug. I think the stuff is beautiful and deadly and as such something this big just sets my whole body on edge, like that feeling in the air before a thunderstorm.
I've spent the last three months waiting. I've got a week to wait left. And now there's enough smoke in the air that I can't see the mountains and I'm slowly going nuts in my own head with the want to do something, but I don't know what that something is.
Oh, and the air quality is bad enough that my asthma says I shouldn't be outside.
So instead I'm sitting in the house drinking endless iced tea and reading fanfics.
I'm this big mess of words and memories and feelings and none of it matches together to a cohesive image in any way.
There's fires again.
For those of you who are not from the Okanagan, some background:
There was a fire in 2003 that ate a bunch of houses up in the mission and we got evacuated for five days.
The Okanagan valley is considered a semi-arid desert and as such we always lack in the precipitation department pretty heavily over the summer, and this summer is drier than most.
There's currently three fires burning on the opposite side of the lake from Kelowna.
Now, I'm a bit of a firebug. I think the stuff is beautiful and deadly and as such something this big just sets my whole body on edge, like that feeling in the air before a thunderstorm.
I've spent the last three months waiting. I've got a week to wait left. And now there's enough smoke in the air that I can't see the mountains and I'm slowly going nuts in my own head with the want to do something, but I don't know what that something is.
Oh, and the air quality is bad enough that my asthma says I shouldn't be outside.
So instead I'm sitting in the house drinking endless iced tea and reading fanfics.