Outside the rain is falling, on my phone I wish you were calling...
How good are you at fooling people into believing they shouldn't worry about you when they really should be? I'm getting so good at it that it kind of scares me...I'm about the furthest thing from ok...I'm just able to fake a few laughs & smiles every once in a while, and people leave me alone...People think I'm so strong...I'll tell you what; I'm a coward... I'm scared to give in to how I really feel...Why you ask? Because then everyone will be sicky-sweet to me & constantly try to cheer me up...I feel like a freak when everyone focuses on me...People treating me like glass that could shatter at any second...It's just uncomfortable...
It's funny, cause when I wrote down things to put down in here the other night, I had every intention of having a really nice update...But of course shit had to happen...But in direct defiance of that, I'm still going to touch on everything I wrote down so that I wouldn't forget to mention it...Here we go:
The sunday before last my mother dyed my hair the wrong color...At first I was mortified and called Ryan up crying like a dumbass, but he said it was ok, and he actually made me feel better...He's so awesome...
Then last friday I brought Ann-Marie to Nissa's Petra Fashion party (lingere)...We had fun...LOL..."In an airplane"...Hehehe...I got a 115 on the test to rate your sex life...I scored highest out of all the women there!!! We rule Ryan!! And Ann-Marie said that Rick told her he won't hang out with us together again...He can't handle the witty banter...Or our combined beauty...LOL...
My friend Lindsey's husband Jr. found out they're going to be stationed in Alaska...We were really hoping to get stationed together, but we didn't...Go figure...I wish her the best of luck...I love you Lin!!!
This past sunday Marissa & I finally hung out...She picked me up around 1pm-ish, then we headed to The Friendly Toast for lunch...It was PACKED!!! So we put our names on the wait list & walked up to MacroPolo where I bought these:
Gotta love the mini devil duckies...Then we walked back just in time for our names to get called to be seated...So we ate, then went walking through a lot of the stores in downtown Portsmouth...I bought THE yummiest smelling candle ever at MacroScopic, and I could have maxed out my credit card @ MacroUnleashed...Then we went back to Rissa's car & set out to pick up Alexis @ her apartment...After we got her, we called Christina & had her meet us @ Dover Bowl...So then the four of us bowled, and Alexis' friend Jill watched...We used the little balls, and I kept fighting with the little girl next to us for the pink one...It was funny, cause I'd race to it before she could...I'm mean, I know...And her dad was psycho!!! He almost broke the thing that puts the pins down...After we finished, we were just sitting around our lane, and some guy was assigned to it, so we had to move our stuff, and it was perfect timing cause Ryan called right when I picked up my purse, so I ran outside (in my bowling shoes) so that we could hear each other... Only talked for like 5 minutes, and I haven't talked to him on the phone since...It's really sad...We just keep missing each other...
Then we all (minus Jill) went back to Alexis' apartment to watch Charlie's Angels & a little bit of Empire Records...Christina kept chasing Alexis' cat Jewels around, calling her Meow-Meow...It was funny...Like, piss-you-pants funny...And then she was flipping through a magazine & found her dream man...Too bad he was in the "Spotting a liar; body language guide"...Hehehe...We had our picture taken with him... LMAO...Marissa took a bunch of pictures, but they're on her camera, or else I'd post some...And apparently I have large pupils...I don't think I'd ever noticed...Hmmm...And once we left, Christina took a wrong turn & we ended up in front of her...LOL...She must have been so pissed...hehehe...
Ok, so next saturday, December 3rd is my last day @ The Critter Barn... It's going to be so strange not waking up to go there every morning...Oh well, I won't be so banged up, either...Maybe my back will calm down now...I hurt it today lifting Big Papi, a HUGE Rottie (the top of his head comes up to my boobs while he's standing normal!!) into the bath tub...Peg & Abby couldn't do it, so I had to...I'll miss certain people, and a handful of the dogs, but the rest of them I won't...And of course I'll miss Peg & Jay...Ryan flies home on the 10th, so I'll be picking him up from Manchester Air Port when his flight comes in that afternoon...I can't wait for that...I printed off his flight info so I wouldn't forget...17 more days...We'll have approximately 5 days before we have to start driving out to Utah...Within those 5 days, we're getting married...I can't wait for that, either!!!I just want him back home, here with me...Is that REALLY selfish of me? So let me know if you want to see me before I leave, and we can try to arrange something...
Thanksgiving is the day after tomorrow...I'm pretty excited about that...Sure
I get to see my family, but I'm WAY more excited about getting a huge bowl of Gram R's homemade fruit cocktail...I'm taking home a big bucket when we leave, so when I have a rough day, I can drown my sorrows...It's about damn time...I missed that stuff...Ok, if I've never told you about it before, you wouldn't understand...Then after that, we're going to Gram C's where I believe we're playing some poker (but maybe not), and papa is making me strawberry cheesecake since it's my last Thanksgiving home (unless we fly back)...Yummy...
Well, I'm tired, so I'm going to go get some sleep...I'm going to sleep in tomorrow, cause Peg said she could handle the 1/2 day on her own... I'm only going in if she calls to tell me Jessie's coming over, or that she's already there...Then I'll hop in my car & haul ass over there... That girl was like a sister to me when I first started @ Peg's, and when she left, I was sooo sad...Ok, I'm out for good now...More sometime when I feel like it...
It's funny, cause when I wrote down things to put down in here the other night, I had every intention of having a really nice update...But of course shit had to happen...But in direct defiance of that, I'm still going to touch on everything I wrote down so that I wouldn't forget to mention it...Here we go:
The sunday before last my mother dyed my hair the wrong color...At first I was mortified and called Ryan up crying like a dumbass, but he said it was ok, and he actually made me feel better...He's so awesome...
Then last friday I brought Ann-Marie to Nissa's Petra Fashion party (lingere)...We had fun...LOL..."In an airplane"...Hehehe...I got a 115 on the test to rate your sex life...I scored highest out of all the women there!!! We rule Ryan!! And Ann-Marie said that Rick told her he won't hang out with us together again...He can't handle the witty banter...Or our combined beauty...LOL...
My friend Lindsey's husband Jr. found out they're going to be stationed in Alaska...We were really hoping to get stationed together, but we didn't...Go figure...I wish her the best of luck...I love you Lin!!!
This past sunday Marissa & I finally hung out...She picked me up around 1pm-ish, then we headed to The Friendly Toast for lunch...It was PACKED!!! So we put our names on the wait list & walked up to MacroPolo where I bought these:
Gotta love the mini devil duckies...Then we walked back just in time for our names to get called to be seated...So we ate, then went walking through a lot of the stores in downtown Portsmouth...I bought THE yummiest smelling candle ever at MacroScopic, and I could have maxed out my credit card @ MacroUnleashed...Then we went back to Rissa's car & set out to pick up Alexis @ her apartment...After we got her, we called Christina & had her meet us @ Dover Bowl...So then the four of us bowled, and Alexis' friend Jill watched...We used the little balls, and I kept fighting with the little girl next to us for the pink one...It was funny, cause I'd race to it before she could...I'm mean, I know...And her dad was psycho!!! He almost broke the thing that puts the pins down...After we finished, we were just sitting around our lane, and some guy was assigned to it, so we had to move our stuff, and it was perfect timing cause Ryan called right when I picked up my purse, so I ran outside (in my bowling shoes) so that we could hear each other... Only talked for like 5 minutes, and I haven't talked to him on the phone since...It's really sad...We just keep missing each other...
Then we all (minus Jill) went back to Alexis' apartment to watch Charlie's Angels & a little bit of Empire Records...Christina kept chasing Alexis' cat Jewels around, calling her Meow-Meow...It was funny...Like, piss-you-pants funny...And then she was flipping through a magazine & found her dream man...Too bad he was in the "Spotting a liar; body language guide"...Hehehe...We had our picture taken with him... LMAO...Marissa took a bunch of pictures, but they're on her camera, or else I'd post some...And apparently I have large pupils...I don't think I'd ever noticed...Hmmm...And once we left, Christina took a wrong turn & we ended up in front of her...LOL...She must have been so pissed...hehehe...
Ok, so next saturday, December 3rd is my last day @ The Critter Barn... It's going to be so strange not waking up to go there every morning...Oh well, I won't be so banged up, either...Maybe my back will calm down now...I hurt it today lifting Big Papi, a HUGE Rottie (the top of his head comes up to my boobs while he's standing normal!!) into the bath tub...Peg & Abby couldn't do it, so I had to...I'll miss certain people, and a handful of the dogs, but the rest of them I won't...And of course I'll miss Peg & Jay...Ryan flies home on the 10th, so I'll be picking him up from Manchester Air Port when his flight comes in that afternoon...I can't wait for that...I printed off his flight info so I wouldn't forget...17 more days...We'll have approximately 5 days before we have to start driving out to Utah...Within those 5 days, we're getting married...I can't wait for that, either!!!I just want him back home, here with me...Is that REALLY selfish of me? So let me know if you want to see me before I leave, and we can try to arrange something...
Thanksgiving is the day after tomorrow...I'm pretty excited about that...Sure
I get to see my family, but I'm WAY more excited about getting a huge bowl of Gram R's homemade fruit cocktail...I'm taking home a big bucket when we leave, so when I have a rough day, I can drown my sorrows...It's about damn time...I missed that stuff...Ok, if I've never told you about it before, you wouldn't understand...Then after that, we're going to Gram C's where I believe we're playing some poker (but maybe not), and papa is making me strawberry cheesecake since it's my last Thanksgiving home (unless we fly back)...Yummy...
Well, I'm tired, so I'm going to go get some sleep...I'm going to sleep in tomorrow, cause Peg said she could handle the 1/2 day on her own... I'm only going in if she calls to tell me Jessie's coming over, or that she's already there...Then I'll hop in my car & haul ass over there... That girl was like a sister to me when I first started @ Peg's, and when she left, I was sooo sad...Ok, I'm out for good now...More sometime when I feel like it...