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I should be studying. So what am I doing? Updating my livejournal... wOOt!
Emily had another new boy so she asked me to go out with her but he wanted her to go to his house so we invited him over here. Emily tried to get a whole bunch of people over but the only success was convincing Mala and Whitney to stay and Brett. Anyone who was not reading my old LJ in February doesn't know about Brett but we met on Superbowl Sunday at a party when I was intoxicated. He got my number and I went to a TKE soccer game with him and over the course of a week we talked and kissed a few times. Well then he started to blow me off. It hurt really badly at first because he would bring his exgirlfriend out to stuff just to show me that nothing would happen between us. I later found out this was because he smoked pot and knew I didn't approve. So in the long run, I appreciate it. But at the time, it hurt like hell. Well we haven't really talked in a while but he just broke up with his girlfriend and IMed me last night. When he first said he and Tiffany had broken up, I felt weird. I have Colin and love him deeply but I had always wondered what would have happened between me and Brett. He's friends with Emily too so he came over last night. I actually didn't notice but Emily said he was hitting on me all night. Well he went out to smoke (blah) and I went out to talk to him. I sat there, talking to him and I realized something: while it may have been fun for a little while, Brett and I never would have worked out the way Colin and I do. I also realized that the only thing I felt toward Brett was friendship. The fact that I miss Colin like crazy makes it hard sometimes. I want to be with him all the time and I get jealous seeing my friends dating and having guys here. But then I think about the future and how my friends will still be trying to find the right guy while I have mine. And it may be hard now while he's not here but soon, I will be there. I wonder if he ever feels the same way...
Ok, I need to go study!
Emily had another new boy so she asked me to go out with her but he wanted her to go to his house so we invited him over here. Emily tried to get a whole bunch of people over but the only success was convincing Mala and Whitney to stay and Brett. Anyone who was not reading my old LJ in February doesn't know about Brett but we met on Superbowl Sunday at a party when I was intoxicated. He got my number and I went to a TKE soccer game with him and over the course of a week we talked and kissed a few times. Well then he started to blow me off. It hurt really badly at first because he would bring his exgirlfriend out to stuff just to show me that nothing would happen between us. I later found out this was because he smoked pot and knew I didn't approve. So in the long run, I appreciate it. But at the time, it hurt like hell. Well we haven't really talked in a while but he just broke up with his girlfriend and IMed me last night. When he first said he and Tiffany had broken up, I felt weird. I have Colin and love him deeply but I had always wondered what would have happened between me and Brett. He's friends with Emily too so he came over last night. I actually didn't notice but Emily said he was hitting on me all night. Well he went out to smoke (blah) and I went out to talk to him. I sat there, talking to him and I realized something: while it may have been fun for a little while, Brett and I never would have worked out the way Colin and I do. I also realized that the only thing I felt toward Brett was friendship. The fact that I miss Colin like crazy makes it hard sometimes. I want to be with him all the time and I get jealous seeing my friends dating and having guys here. But then I think about the future and how my friends will still be trying to find the right guy while I have mine. And it may be hard now while he's not here but soon, I will be there. I wonder if he ever feels the same way...
Ok, I need to go study!