Nov 22, 2005 10:42
I'm just sitting here thinking of how I've know Carolyn all my life. We have videos of her at my first birthday and her parents are my godparents. But they moved to Florida when I was little and now that Carolyn and I talk all the time and we'll probably be hanging out tons when I move to Boston, I'm sad that we lost touch for such a large period of time. I mean, we didn't really cuz we always exchanged Christmas and birthday presents (almost always late which made it fun) but we only saw each other every once in a while. Mostly when they'd come up to visit their grandma or on the rare occasion that my parents would take us to Disney World. But all in all, Carolyn and I lost touch except through our moms.
Then I think about how I'm about to spend the rest of my life with possibly the most amazing guy in the world and definately the most amazing guy that has ever been a part of my life. Then I can't believe I was ever scared to tell anyone about us. I realized that I don't give a damn what anyone else thinks in the long run because I am an adult. I'm not pregnant and I may not be perfectly responsible but it will happen. I'm going to need my own health insurance, I'm selling my car, I'm basically being cut off. No more calling Mommy when I need money. I will also most likely never have to travel alone again. Colin and I will go everywhere together. And as scared as I am sometimes about the aspect of giving up my life as I know it for a boy, I am so excited that my parents are actually telling me that it is ok to exercise my rights as an adult.
I hope everyone travels safely home for Thanksgiving. If you're flying, call me and let me know you got home safely, especially if your name begins with a C... Boston kids, get some Chick-Fil-A. Colin, I promise you can get more Zax sauce. Live life and don't be afraid to take a chance because you could die tomorrow or you could live on forever.
Hugs and Kisses and Thanksgiving wishes!